Perfect SCARS

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Simon was a bore but I liked the fact that he answered my questions honestly as we drove to the diner

When we got to the place I send a message to Victoria and Julie letting them know I had left the place

I ordered for Chinese rice and sauce with grilled fice  while he ordered for yam and pepper soup

Being here as completely changed my life. .. People had to be on my schedule to have dinner with me and it can't just be anybody... That person must have earn it in some way

But here I am sitting in a place I don't even know with a complete stranger at what extend

At what extend am I willing to go to get what I want... How many sacrifices do I have to make to pull this through

Every morning am reminded that time is not by My side and I need to come up with something fast
But whenever I find myself In his environment I go blank like my head leaves my body and I no longer function probably

As they serve our orders...
I know I just have to play along
Have come this far... Gotten into his car and made it to this place

"So I first saw you at Philips welcome party in that amazing black dress and am like who is this goddess... And then I saw you with Victoria.. You were both wearing the same design so I figured you guys were friends..... I would have asked her about you but I don't want any complications"

"Really in what sense "

"Victoria is a very... I don't know how to put it "

"Put it in your own words.... Never mind that she's my friend "

"And still I don't want you to misquote me "

"I  will try not to "

"She's a very clingy kind of person... i don't want you to hear this from elsewhere especially from Julie who thought we were in a relationship due to how close we were "

"So You guys were really close "

"Yeah... Something like that "

"But You were not in a relationship "

"No... We weren't, I admired her personality but that was just it"

"And You are no longer close as you use to be "

"Yeah.... We grew apart  "

"Sounds more like a relationship to me"

"No it's not... I swear. You can ask her about it"

"No... I don't have to ask her anything. You decided to tell me this.. I didn't even know you guys were friends "

"Of course You didn't " he said to himself

"But what I don't understand is why you are telling me all this "

"I...... I'm beginning to like you Genesis and I don't want us to start off on a rocky foundation "

"Start off.... "

I just had to laugh..... What is wrong with this one, who is starting what with who

We finished lunch and he insisted to drop me at home and even look into my housing issue.....
He's quite adamant and I wouldn't want him to feel like I'm not willing to give him a chance even though I don't really give a fuck
. I just need to be at everyone face.. Regardless of who it is.. Just so as long as they are involved with Philips

Just before I step out of his car

"Eerm Genesis... I know you might  find this too soon or too quick but I would like you to come with me to a small get to gether tomorrow night "

How do I spell it out that I'm not interested in playing drunk in love with someone who is so desperate for affection.... The same affection I know nothing about... I wasn't born into a loving home or a loving family
Neither was I trained with love or raised with love

I am the last person on earth you want to seek affection from because I don't know the first thing to it and I don't care

But I found myself answering

"What kind of gathering "

"Just a usaul hangouts between friends "

"Will anybody I know be there "

"Uhhhm... I stop inviting Victoria to this stuff because you know like I said.. We.. Uhm"

"You grew apart... "
. I completed the sentence for him... I wasn't asking about Victoria anyway

"I understand... Who else, "

"Julie doesn't come to this things because Philip doesn't want her there.. You know how she is... No offense but, "

"None taken "
I actually think I will prepare for this party
No Julie.. No Victoria
Just me and him well with  some bunch of idiots

"I know it might be uncomfortable for you since.. You know all your friends will not be there but I'm hoping You can attend for the fun of it... And nothing more "

Ohh man.. You talk too much...
Now I have to think of a makeup line to explain why I want to come

"Well I think you are a great guy and even though I just met you today officially it feels like I've known you a long time.... I guess a little get together can't be harmful.... But that means I can't mention it to my friends if I don't want them to get upset "

"They won't have to know.... I'm so glad you feel this way. It exactly how I feel  "

Save the long story... Talkative

"And what about Philip "

"That's not a problem.... Is not like he goes home and blabs about his activities to his wife, he doesn't even have time for that "

"If that is settled. I guess I'll see you tomorrow then "

"Great... I'll pick you up by seven "

He smiled shining all his teeth. I could only managed a small smile as we exchanged numbers and I hopped down from his car