Perfect SCARS

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It felt good to be back home, but I could only hide my pain because I didn't want the ladies to notice
They were doing their best to cheer me up
After I took a good bath, they made dinner well Aunt Pamela made it and it tastes really good but my appetite was a mess..... I couldn't swallow well.
My stomach feels knotted and there's no space to take in........ While eating I thought of Philip and if he had eventually regained consciousness or eaten anything it

After eating I went to bed but I still couldn't sleep. Lucy left but before she did I called her to the room

"Ermm Lucy, I would like to follow up on a girl she was my cellmate and she's just sixteen "

"Ohhh really.. "

"Yeah "

"What happened to her "

"She was raped repeatedly ......  by her uncle, and she stabbed him "

"Woah..... Did he live, "

"She's not sure, do you know what she told me........ She doesn't regret doing it"

"Can't blame her...... This is what they bring out in people... They deposit so much anger in you and you just turn violent because it the only way to survive.... It their head or yours "

"I never had the heart to do that to Philip all the time I was in his house, but do you know what I realize now.... Maybe I would have done it if it were someone else. I would have been screwed but because it him.. I couldn't do it, I still can't believe I did this ". I held back my tears. It what I do best these days

"Just because it been so long doesn't mean what he did was right..... Or have you forgotten about it already "

"How can I ever forget. now I feel even more guilty because I have been punishing myself for so long,.. Now that I know, I can't help it "

"You need rest sweetie..... We'll discuss this tomorrow "

"Okay.... But forget about the girl I talked about.. Her name's Salia, even if I can't help myself I should be able to help others "

She nodded and walked out of the room.
I was going to get water when Tris showed up at the door with a glass of water. I thought she had left. I wasn't  expecting to see her or still have her around

"Ohhh Tris..... Thanks "
I took the water from her and gulp slowly "I didn't know you'd still be here"..

"I couldn't leave.... Not without apologizing to you first "

"Whha.... What," I pushed the glass away from my mouth... " You don't owe me an apology Tris... "

"I do.... You have no idea how terrible I felt about the turnout of things "
She said beside me on the bed

"No... You shouldn't feel indebted to me..... I understand you chickened out anyone could have.. You don't have to blame yourself for anything.. If anything I should be apologizing to you for pushing you.  I made you agree to rehab and give you deadline.. Yes I was after your wellbeing but I  wasn't being considerate.... I shouldn't have pressurized you "

"You didn't pressurize me Genesis... You never did, You came from nowhere as a ray of light into my condemned darkness.. You gave me hope and a new sense of living.... I agree I chickened out but before I could only try to think about it, I know the level of regret I had to endure and I don't blame anyway for what happened to me... Not even Philip.. He never loved me from the first day. I was just in a relationship all by myself. "

"What do you mean ....... You were his only girlfriend I knew of and he never had anyone else "

"He didn't want a relationship to begin with...... I forced myself on him
.. Do you know how long it took for us to get together.... We only started dating when he brought you home. We didn't even last six months"