Perfect SCARS

35

I couldn't sleep, I stayed awake all night... Thinking and reminiscing how I would go about this

I could just pack my bag and leave this minute but I have my life here

And it was built working with This firm

Pearson and Co law firm, started just like a mere fantasy when I would just walk past the building but in three years I made my way to the top and I could never be more proud of myself

I started from the scratch, from the very bottom and climbed my way to the top.... Without selling myself cheap. I worked day and night just to prove myself... My worth.. Just to make a name for myself, just so I won't just be useless...

Ohhh I worked so hard, even when my efforts were thrashed I would still stand firm and try harder... That how I got really good at what I do and other firms started begging me to work for them

I could say that I've achieved what I have always wanted but I'm not happy... I live in an isolated and suffocating world all by myself...

And it's not because I like to be like this... It is because it keeps following.. Everywhere I go.. The pain , The shame, The SCARS... No matter how hard I try it doesn't get better..

I use to tell myself that when I become so rich and comfortable, I won't remember a thing about my horrible past.. Which was why I kept working harder....

But it didn't work.... It only got worse. The nightmares, the delusions.. The other day I went to a Foster care for their charity program and I weeped my eyes out in the rest room

The rate of children in the system has increased by a great number and it makes me wonder how their lives would turn out... So many are still on the streets.. Fighting to survive... How long will this continue to go on

I will do what I have to....
At least now I know money doesn't cure pain... It only buys time...

because I've been awake all night I didn't need my regular alarm to wake me... once it was dawn.... I tried opening the windows but the rays burn straight into my eyes.. And I shut them back..

My eyes are red and swollen.. When I looked in the mirror, I looked so pale, and that even the least of my worries. I'm at the verge of resigning my dream job to avenge the man that ruined my life.. So No... Am not worried about my looks

I didn't bother to shower or to pick out a nice dress, I grabbed my lilac kimono and my flat slippers, hand brushed my hair ...picked up a pair of sunshade. Grabbed my bags and keys and hurried out of the house

on the drive to work, I kept thinking.. I have made up my mind but I have regrets. Lot of them.. But if I don't fight my battles.. No one will fight on my behalf.. No one knows or cares

So many might ignore it, let it go but I can't.... And I won't..
I'm stubborn like that

When I pulled over at the car park.. Gave my keys to Joe... And could see Peters waiting for me outside the building...

I moved closer to her before she could see me

"Ohh.. Good..... Morning ma"
She was stunt because of my appearance I don't blame her, we walked into the building together

"Mornin.... Peters "

"Ma.. Are you feeling... Ok.. This morning "

"Why... You dont like how Look"

"No.. I mean, of course not... No matter what you wear you always look adorable... Like really cute "

We were already in the elevator by the time she made that statement

"Is that suppose to be a compliment, How many times would I warn you to stop calling me cute and adorable..., its annoying especially when it coming from you "

Peters is a weird girl, and bisexual.... Since I saw alot of my pictures in her locker and she told me she was keeping them because she liked them I found them really creepy and told her to remove them

So whenever she says somethings... I find it meaning something else... So most times I just shun her

"Am sorry ma... I didn't mean it that way... I'm just surprised by your dressing to work that's all "

"I wear what I like... Peters, it should be the least of your worries "

"I'm sorry ma.... So uhm ma you have a early meeting with Mr Pearson "

I died on my tracks, he's just the man I want to see to tender my resignation

"When.... "

"By 8:30am"

"What says the time now "

"Ohhh shit... It's past 8... Like almost nine"

"Well...thank You for nothing Peters "

I took a few deep breaths before riding the elevator to Pearson's floor...
I'm really doing this... I tried to talk myself out of it... But my mind's made up

I smiled at his secretary and she nodded looking awkwardly at my kimono...
I walked into his office and that scumbag was there... I nod and sat on the sit beside him and opposite Pearson

Pearson is a multi business man, he has several other business aside the firm so he is quite busy and occupied so whenever he's around something is definitely up

He is a tall man in his mid fifties with grey hair.... He's actually sweet and understanding and I know he won't take this news of mine so well... He's grown fond of me.. These past few years

"Nice of You to finally join us Genesis.. "

"Am sorry did I keep you waiting "

"Not really.... You don't look too good is everything ok"

"Yeah... Yeah am great, just had a rough night "

"Tell me about it"
Johnny whispered and giggled beside me

"Do You find anything funny.... Parker"
I gave him a dead glare and he cleared his throat

"No not at all.. "

"Actually.... I called you here so we can discuss what happened with the songhai group of companies .... You see I know you think Parker is on to you or something but I heard they were moving to another firm... I couldn't let that happen so I spoke to Johnny and he arranged a quick meeting with them to fix it... And truly what really matters is fixing it.. Right"

Right.....You could have just arranged a meeting with me to fix it up.. They are my clients...  This is bullshit but I don't care.. He can have all of them

"It's cool.... But can I talk to you personally pls "

"Yes... Of course, pls excuse us Johnny "

"Alright sir.... Sorry for the misunderstanding Brown "

"Fuck You... "

I replied softly, mr Pearson gave me a glare and I raised my shoulder... Have I not been nice enough if I wasn't quitting.. He knows, they both know I won't let this slide
But am here for something else entirely

Now how do I begin