Perfect SCARS

45

I was torn in between
Usually I don't care, people who get in my way are just mere subordinate,

I can dissolve our relationship in a minute  I don't give a shit

But today I feel terrible for making this decision..

I got what I wanted though, Juliet invited me to the welcome party but at what cost

I had to make my friends feel irrelevant

I wanted to speak with Victoria but by the time Juliet finishes her makeover. She was in a hurry and I couldn't speak to Victoria

In the car as we drove out of the building... Mira's mood was down and she was very quiet

"Wel done.... Mira, That makeover was topnotch "
She nodded

"Am sure after Friday, she would want to retain you as her makeup artist "

"You can drop me at that bus top... "

"Why are you going somewhere "

"Ain't You going to see your housing agent "

"Ohhh that.... Uhm"

"No need for an explanation. You need your personal space.. Don't you "

"That's not it at all "

"I dont want to hear it... Pls "

"Mira.. This has nothing to do with that, sincerely I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was looking for an apartment but you should know I can't stay in your place for ever "

"Did I complain to you "

"You dont have to Mira, ... And I know you won't complain because its your nature to be nice.. But it's not my nature to over stay my welcome. I've stayed with you for almost  three weeks.... I don't need to be told before I start making plans... Not because I don't like staying with you but because it is the right thing to do..... I wouldn't mind accommodating someone for a day or two but indefinitely can be inconvenient"

"First of all... You are not anyone, You are my good friend, The best I have had in years and then who's complaining about any inconvenience coz am not.... So stop making this excuses Genee it's not making sense.... And wait oh!  how long do you intend to stay in Nigeria  "

"I dont know.... Babe... I don't know how long "

"Ohh I think you know just how long... That's why you are renting an apartment, that's why you are changing all of a sudden "

"You see this is why you should stop reading meaning into things, stop misinterpreting things..... You haven't seen me in three years and you think you know everything about me.......
Well am sorry to burst your bubble, I am not a demon to my own person.. I have changed and why won't I... Living alone is not healthy, it's sad and depressing..... I don't want to continue to live like that
I have changed Mira... Alot
And am sorry it is coming as a shock to you but it happened and am not going to push it away "

She sighed... I had said alot and knowing her, she's probably reading meanings to every word I just said .. I feel bad but I'm at the edge of telling her everything....

I probably should....
Now is the time...
But am so close,
I've made progress
I'm just coming from his house
I just had tea and chat with his wife
Why turn back now..

She sighed and looked out through the window

"I shouldn't have said... Am sorry "

"No... No, it's fine. You are actually right. This overzealous concern of mine is bugging..... You have grown and I should be proud of you.... Am truly sorry "