Perfect SCARS

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My eyes are wide open
My lips trembling slightly
My breath, hard and stuffy
My body stand still..

Is this how it feels like to see the demon that tortures you every night in your sleep...
Is this how it feels to see your worst terror

Tears were clouding my eyes and I can feel them run down my cheeks any moment from now  if I continue this way 

I felt like I was drowning yet am still standing.... But the air was tighter and it wasn't like this before
I've been in this room for over two hours.. Why am I suddenly feeling this way

Why am I doing this to myself...
This is so uncalled for

I cautioned myself and took deep breaths and comport myself

I looked round me and no one seem to have noticed that I just died for five seconds right now

All attention was fixed on him...
Like he was some god or something
Looking dapper in his gray suit.

His expression though was something else entirely..
He looked horrified... Disgusted even

I remember when he makes this face every time I made meal wrongly or prepared something tasteless or too salty... He would look at me irritated and angrily

I guess he didn't like the surprise then... I notice hands waving at me from afar and saw it was Victoria signalling to me to come

I looked back at him and he had suddenly pasted a huge smile on his face and was greeting everyone

I moved quickly, to where Victoria was standing... She grabbed my hand and lead me through a stair to another small parlor upstairs

"What's going on Victoria... Why did you bring me here"

"I brought you here so that..... You can enjoy the main event of the party "

I could smell alcohol from her breath

"What are you talking about, have you been drinking "

"Just a little.... "
She demonstrated little with her thumb and index finger

"These doesnt feels little at all.. Cmon we should go downstairs "

"Why"

Because I need to be downstairs.. How do I explain myself to this girl

"Well we need to get you out of here... You look exhausted "

"No.. Honey, am not leaving... Not before the main event "

"What main event are you talking about... The party is downstairs.. Everyone is downstairs and you are here acting really weird.... Why not just let us go home and rest for the day "

"stop talking to me like am a child Genesis.... Am fine, I'm not drunk, just a few glass of wine..."

"Okay... If you say so,,, why are we here, am sure you didn't choose this time to show me around the house "

"No silly.... I brought you here "

"Pls dont say main event one more time I'm going nuts already  "

"Relax..... It's no big deal "

"It wouldn't be if we were downstairs "

"I just want to show you something.. I hope you saw Philip's expression when he walked in...... Juliet is in for it tonight.... I can't wait to hear him scold her like he always does "

I raised my shoulders... Big deal... Couple's argue all the time doesn't make them enemies

"He hates crowd, he hates parties and that's all Juliet can think of.. She always love to be the centre of attraction all the time, she wants to be all the world is talking about and Philip is the complete opposite. Sometimes I wonder how they managed to convince him to go into politics "

She laughs crookedly... She is tipsy so am sure she's just making up most of the things she's saying but I just wish she'll have this conversation downstairs instead...

I only saw Philip for a few minutes that wasn't enough.....
We heard foot cracking sounds and Victoria moved me to a corner of the small parlor whispering something I couldn't hear

"What now"

"Shuuuuh..... Don't make a sound, stay calm "

I am calm but I can't tell for how long... I mean how silly is this, hiding up here with our backs against the wall listening to foot cracking on the hard board

Then door opening.....

"What is this the meaning of this "

The same bold tough voice... That rings a bell in my head every now and then... I don't need anyone to confirm to me. I know whose voice it is

"a surprise... Baby, You don't like it "

"Did I ask you for a surprise.... What's the meaning of this rubbish, who asked you to do anything... "

"Honey its no big deal.... It's just a welcome party "

"For me or for you.... Have told you countless times to stop doing stupid things in my name..... Can you imagine by this time of the night all these people in my house "

"It's my house too... Philip, can't you just be happy with my efforts as a caring and loving wife "

"Well if you had any sense of humor at all..You won't be adding to my stress...  You will understand that I would love to be on my bed sleeping off the endless meetings and flight hours and not having this buzzing headache under my roof"

"Am sorry... You didn't like it, but I planned this with so much love and so much effort "

"Then channel all that your love and effort into getting all those people out of my house right now "

"But they are not just anybody philip.. They are our family, our friends.... I can't just chase them out... And Besides you just got here, You should at least chat with them for a while  "

"Juli... Juliet, Are you listening to me at all, its late.. Party is over.. Get them out of here right now "
The firmness in his tone coarse the atmosphere at once
Then silence
And foot cracking and stairs...

Then music turned off
Party is over