Break me to build me

chapter 3

JUSTIN´S POV

We were seated in a Ferrari, I suppose is Liam´s cause he´s the one driving… I had a sleeping, and snoring Niall in my lap and a very talk ready Harry beside me… my thighs are numb but I didn’t really mind Niall is so cute!! when he sleeps he’s like a little angel without wings and nothing can’t really make him happier then food! That’s my Niall ladies and gentleman! My all to beautiful Niall.

“-e you even listening to me Justin? I thought that you wanted me to get to know you! Don’t you like me...” Harry literally screamed in my ear and I jerked and almost nocked head with Niall but as skilled as I am I missed his head and… bumped head with… the window instead.

“of course I want to get to know all of you but you are starting to get very annoying and your voice is so slow so it gets really long all of those sentences you just said! so if you will be kind enough I would suggest that you start asking one question at a time! Thank you!” I said as I started looking at Niall again but I did really listen to Harry to!

“all right! So when did you know that you were gay?” Harry asked in a much calmer tone.

“somewhere around twelve or so… oh no I mean I came out when I was fourteen so I guess that I started thinking about being with a guy instead of a girl when I was… around thirteen! Cause my mum, or I guess Patricia now, she got angrier than I ever have even seen a person get and she disowned me when I was fifteen because I got to live there a month cause I had to pack but she haven´t talked to me since then… I feel like utter shit… but I can´t really like force her to love me, can I? no I can´t…” I had tears in my eyes and I felt one single tear slide down my cheek, I sobbed and Harry didn’t know what to do so I sat there in silence until I could hear Niall squirm in my lap, he must have heard my sobs… I’m such a bad boyfriend for crying and waking him up!

“Justin? Babe? What happened?” Niall had turned around and looked at me with a concerned look on his face.

“n-no it´s nothing, Harry just asked me when I first thought about guys in… this way” I said as I pointed between us, he stroke his thumb over my cheek and leaned down to the side of my face where Harry couldn’t see what he was doing. He leaned down to my ear and whispered.

“you are stronger then you think and you can say anything to this guys without them judging you…” he whispered.

“I-I know but I just can´t think about my mum, Patricia… I feel bad…”

“did he ask you about your mum??” he paused “Harry! You didn’t know anything about Justin and the first fucki-“ he got stopped by Louis

“Niall Horan!! You don’t say the f-word around me!!!”

“Louis hold your ears! I am going to swear! Harry how did you think!!!”

“Niall! He didn’t bring up my mum! I did… I was comfortable bye telling them! He had nothing to do with that! I brought it up, just because if they asked another time I would feel like I lied for them so I told them!”

“sorry that it happened to ya Justin, I got through the same thing! I would want to explain how it was for me but we can take that at the café!” Liam smiled back at me ad focused back on the road.

“thanks man I really appreciate it! It would probably help a little! If you don’t mind I would really like to be all of you guys friend!”

“yeah of course!” everybody screamed back at me, I smiled at all three.

“Okay, now Niall calm down and com here, hug me, love me!” he laughed at the last part I smiled at him and he leaned down and planted a soft kiss on to my lips

“love you so much” Niall exclaimed in is sexy Irish accent.

“I love you too, now sleep…” I whispered back

he leaned on my chest and after a while I could hear his soft snores I smiled as I feel in to a sweet slumber with the one I love in my lap, I my arms. I could never get enough of him…