Loving the Nightmare ✅

Chapter : 08

“It’s amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces.”
                                          – Ella Harper

Varun's pov:

Despite of the efforts made, I failed to convince mom for cancelling this marriage thing and the consequences for the failure was why I was sitting there in Misha's house even when I didn't wish too!

I looked up and saw Parth smiling at me. I couldn't understand what was wrong with him, and why he kept smiling at me since morning for no proper reason. He is my best friend and is supposed to understand me but no, He was so busy helping Mom with all this marriage thing. why can't they understand that I'm not happy with what they are doing!

Sitting there I remembered the time when we went to Tanvi's home. Our relation was already accepted by both of our families and they were so happy about it. Also being family friends added to that happiness. I remember the anticipation I had to see her. No doubt she took a hell lot of time to come downstairs because she wanted to look the prettiest. Tanvi was so happy seeing us there. The moment she came downstairs and sat beside me everyone started teasing both of us, which made her face a shade of bright pink because of blushing. Everything was so perfect. I miss you so much!

I looked at mom, who was so busy talking with Misha's parents. She looked so happy, and for a moment I wondered if this happiness would last if she will come to know that this marriage is not going to happen, ever! I tried a lot to convince her but every time she came up with a better reason for me to get married. I gave up and decided to think of a another plan and that's when a idea popped in my head, it's only the idea why I'm here otherwise there was no way I would have agreed to visit Misha's home.

After sometime I saw Misha coming down stairs and so I started looking down at the floor. I missed tanvi. All of this was wrong and yet I was unable to stop it. I hoped for my plan to work well. Misha came and sat next to Janvi. Isha immediately raised her hands for her to lift and with in no seconds she was on Misha's lap, smiling happily. I hated the fact that Isha was so friendly with her, that gives another reason for mom to make me marry.

I didn't spoke much it was only when someone asked me any question. My parents as well as her parents talked about our professions and then the topic shifted to my marriage. They talked about Tanvi, making me more uncomfortable than I was before. I felt like running away from there.

After sometime dad spoke,

"I liked Misha very much but in the end it will be the decision of them. So I guess they should talk about it."

Thank you dad. This was something I have been waiting for so long. The moment he said that, I was the first one to go out of the house. Misha followed me as we walked in the foreground of their house. It was indeed built into a very impressive garden. So peaceful.

We kept walking silently, none of us spoke a word. I felt her looking at me from time to time but she was quite as well. We moved further until she went and sat on a bench at the extreme end of the garden, which indirectly made me to sit there as well.

I was here to say something, to implement my plan but it felt like I had no courage left. I was mentally trying to practice how to say it to her.

I guess I took lot of time in practicing because Mishra initiated the conversation by saying a simple 'hi'.

'Hi.' I replied and again there was same silence. I didn't wished to hurt her. Also I was not willing to sound rude, All I wanted was to make her understand that I didn't wish to get married and so I was trying to find kind words.

After that she was the one asking questions and I was the one replying with one liners. After few questions she finally asked a meaningful question which I have been waiting for a long time.

"Don't take me wrong but are you seriously ready for this marriage?" I don't know why but her question  made me shiver internally. I knew this was the time and I had to do what I planned. Go Varun!

"I'm sorry but I ain't ready. In fact I don't want to get married." I said looking straight at her. For a moment there was complete silence between both of us she looked at me with her eyes wide open but deep inside I came to know that it was only her eyes at me, her thoughts were somewhere else.

"I'm sorry." I said as I saw tears welled in her eyes but she was quick enough to turn her gaze.

"I.. Hmm... I." she tried saying something wiping her tears quickly.

"I know this is very insensitive and abrupt but please try to understand me." I said. She looked at me to continue but again looked away as more tears formed in her eyes. Why is she crying so much? We never ever talked and this was just the start, then why? Anyway, I should say everything for what I'm here.

"I loved Tanvi so much, I still do. I can't ever stop that. It will be unfair on her part if I get married, it's like I ditched her and I can never do something like that. I tried explaining all this to mom but she is too stubborn to listen. Asking help from you, is all I could do at this moment. Please say no for this marriage, please." I pleaded.

"Also it will unfair on your part or any other girl I marry because I won't be able to love her, it was only Tanvi I loved and always will. Please, help me."

"What am I supposed to do?" Misha asked, her voice broken now.

"Tell my mother that you don't like me and Don't wish to get married." I replied. Once mom gets to know that Misha cancelled this marriage, she won't force me into another one quickly.

I waited for her reply but all I got was a nod. Misha was not looking at me now. Her head was down and her hair covered half of her face. I was not even able to study her reaction but I knew, she was still crying.

"I'm sorry." I apologised again.

"It's ok. It's okay. If you're not ready, you're not ready. I appreciate your honesty." She replied and stood to leave.

"Let's go and remember to smile when we go inside." She said and this time she walked ahead of me and I was the one to follow her.

As we reached, I saw all the eyes looking at us with hope.

"I will be back in a minute." Misha said and went to kitchen. I got settled on the seat where I was sitting before. As said by Misha, I smiled and saw a glow on mom's face.

I was playing with Isha when Misha's cousin came and handed me a glass of juice. Juice now? I looked at her with a confused expression.

"The sun was so bright outside, right? So Misha told me to give you this." She replied and I saw everyone looking at me maliciously. This is how she is going to say no for the marriage?

"Thank you." I said and took the drink from her.

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