Loving the Nightmare ✅

Chapter : 39

Misha's POV:

Very busy!

I was really very tired because of all the arrangements for my baby's birthday, which is tomorrow however I was not going to let that tiredness affect my excitement in anything. I was done with all the major preparations, now it was just some house decoration which was left. Most of Varun's relatives were already here and so it became a little hectic for me to manage everything, while taking care of everyone and their demands. I was also not able to complete all the designs Karthik gave me the other day, there were still two remaining, which I guess I should do it soon.

Janvi did helped me so much with everything but it was not enough. Talking about Varun, as expected he didn't talk to me since the day of saree incident. Ok, Dadi's sister misunderstood us but at least he knows what was the truth and still he decided to ignore me. Sometimes I really feel like going and punching him hard. He only asks Janvi, if I need any help. Can't he ask me?
During these past three days, only talk we had was when I bought all the necessary things required for the party.

(flash back)

"You bought all these things and still not even a single rupee is deducted from my card, why?" he asked.

"Because I didn't use it." I replied and continued with my work. I was angry with him for ignoring me earlier.

"But why? Was there any problem?"

"No, She is my daughter as well and I can afford celebrating her birthday." I replied. He didn't looked happy with what I said however I knew that he was not going to say anything especially now that Isha has started calling me 'mumma', I swear it was the most happiest day of my entire life. The feeling I felt at that moment was totally unexplainable. I always tired to make her say 'mumma' but she was too stubborn to do that I guess, most of the times she didn't seemed interested and the other times, she was unable to speak that but when one day, I went to Varun's room to take her with me, She happily came running towards me calling 'mumma'. Varun was so shocked however what made me happy was the fact that he didn't oppose it. I was overwhelmed with happiness and so I made her say it again and again, until I was sure that I heard it right. I always loved writing diaries, earlier it was Varun who occupied most  pages of my diary and now it's my baby. That day I realized why mother's get so happy, when called mumma for the first time.

"I didn't say, you can't afford that, I'm just saying it would have cost you a lot, you should have used my card." he said breaking my thoughts.

"Don't worry, that won't make me poor and moreover, Mom paid for it as well." I replied and thought of asking him about mom, lately he has been too stubborn, he hasn't talked with her.

"When are you going to forgive mom? Can't you see, she is not happy because of your behavior?" I asked.

"I don't want to talk about it." he said and moved from there but I stopped him, he is so good at dodging the questions and I'm not letting him do it this time, he can't run away from his problems always, he has to learn to deal with them.

"You have to answer Varun, stop running from your problems." I said as he got angry.

"Why can't you concentrate on your life? Is it so necessary to interfere every time?" He said angrily and I guess he immediately realized what he said was wrong because he apologized.

"Listen, I'm sorry. I got angry, I shouldn't have said that."

"It's ok. I'm used to it." I said and looked sideways. I know he don't like this sentence, it makes him remember what he did to me during the starting days of our marriage, even I don't like to remind it to him again and again however, its the only thing which makes him talk properly with me.