Loving the Nightmare ✅

Chapter : 42

Misha's POV:

What am I going to do next? He said we will find a solution, what solution was he talking about, divorce?

The thought of getting divorce itself made me shiver. I don't want divorce, I love Varun, I love me so much that it hurts now. Can there be any other solution? I don't think so. I was not able to think anything else, my mind was occupied by what Varun said earlier, I tried a lot to control myself however I was not able too, I was going on crying.

I don't know what I did to deserve a life like this. I love Varun and I don't wish to leave him but if it is for his happiness, I guess I will do that as well.

after two days,

It was 10 in the morning, time for Varun to leave for his office. This past two days, I haven't spoke anything with him, I don't even go to his room to take Isha in short I have been staying away from him. Today's case was the same, I was waiting for him to go out so that I can go and do all the household chores. I need sometime to think about everything.

Earlier it was Varun who used to avoid me and now it's me who does that. I'm too broke to go in front of him knowing that he won't be able to love me ever. I agree I told him about the friendship thing and he offered the same but now I don't think I just want his friendship. I need him, his love, his care, everything about him and if I can't get that, I don't wish for anything else.

"Bhabhi, Varun is asking about you, What should I tell?" Janvi asked as she came inside my room.

"Tell him I'm sick."

no, what if he comes here? I will get caught for lying.

"Wait, tell him I'm busy with some work."

"He said he wants to talk." She said further. what does he wants to talk now? Is there something left to talk? Omg, does he wants to talk about divorce? No god please no.

"Bhabhi what happened? Why are you so scared and why these tears?" Janvi asked as she came and sat next to me wiping the tears away. Only the thought of divorce makes me so vulnerable, what will happen when Varun will tell it for real?

"Nothing." I replied and told her to go and say him that I'm busy. She looked sad for what I told her to do but as always went out without saying much.

I wiped my tears and tried to calm myself. what am I going to do now? I was standing near the window when I heard a knock on my door. Varun? But it's been so long that Janvi came to my room, Varun must have went to his office now. I slowly went and opened the door, only too see Varun standing in front of me. The moment our eyes met, I had tears in my eyes again. It hurts to know that the person you love, won't be able to love you ever.

"What's wrong Misha, why are you behaving so strange?" He asked.

"Strange? Of course not. I was very busy with some office work." I lied without looking into his eyes because I was trying to control my tears. It's difficult not to cry while talking to him.

"Don't lie, It's been two days you haven't spoke a word to me. What did I do?" He asked.

"No Varun, why would I lie? I was really very busy with work." I lied again and I guess that made him angry because the next thing he did was holding my wrist and making me look at him in one swift option.

"Look at me and then say the same thing." He demanded and once our eyes met again, I was not able to control my tears anymore.

"It hurts Varun, It hurts a lot to remember whatever you said that day."

"All this time I was living in hope that at least one day you will accept me as your wife, at least I will get a little, very little amount of love from you but after what you said, I have lost all the hopes, it hurts now, it hurts so much." I said and broke down into more tears.