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XXI - Mixed emotions

The following day we woke up, headed to the hotel's dinning room to eat breakfast and then went back to our room to get dressed. Taehyung offered to stay in the city for today so me and Jimin can have some romantic moments at the beach. 

We were of course really thankful. 

I packed our jackets and we headed to the front of the hotel to wait for the bus. 

By now Jimin admitted he wasn't scared of being away from his parents as he is more clingy with me than with his parents so he was sure that will be fine. He was scared that the first night we sleep in our new flat I will want to have sex and he was just terrified of it. 

So once I explained I won't force him into anything, he was able to enjoy himself again. 

Turned out me and Jimin were two of the five people who wanted to go today. 

We got to sit at the front of the bus and Jimin wanted to cuddle. So we did. 

...

The bus ride went okay, Jimin did take a pill but is was a one for headache. Not anxiety.

We were dropped off and let to go out to the city or to the beach and were asked to be back at the bus in five hours. So we had plenty of time to enjoy our first date. 

I never took Jimin for a first date since his family wouldn't let him just leave the house and he didn't want to go get dinner or for a walk. But as I earned his trust with kisses and cuddles, he stopped caring about people around us. I could kiss him and we would make out at school during lunch and he was okay with it. 

He got comfortable with me and his social anxiety improved a bit. He has an appointment right when we get back home so I would love to hear he is doing better. 

There is a chance he could just become socially awkward but capable of starting a conversation on his own one day. But treatment is different from person to person. 

We walked on the beach for a while now, just holding hands and enjoying the view of water. 

"Kookie? You love me right?" suddenly he spoke up. 

"Mhm! Why?" I nodded. 

"I just...wanted to be sure." he sighed. 

"C'mon, what's up?" I turned him to face me. 

"I just remembered something...you know when my social anxiety was at it's worst and I was scared of my own parents judging my every move? And when I passed out at school and you had to call an ambulance.." he mumbled.

"Yeah?" I nodded a bit. 

"Well..I never told you or my parents and asked my doctors to say I was just kinda sick. I was trying to poison myself..overdose to be exact." he mumbled. 

"A-a-and e-even though I am g-gonna move in with y-you..I still had the s-same urge to overdose as back then." he broke into tears. 

"Calm down. I'm really glad you're telling me. I'm sorry you're going through this but I will do my best to fix it." I pulled him into my chest.