Perfectly Imperfect

chapter 36 - i don't know the meaning of family anymore

"do you think he's going to be alright?" i asked mom while tears were going down my cheeks

"to be honest. i don't really know. but let's just hope for the best" she said and kissed the side of my head

my mom hadn't cried yet. she said that we should always stay strong, even if we're breaking.

she's always been my inspiration. she's been through a lot when she was younger. but now she has nothing to worry about. except the fact that the love of her life and my father might die.

"john marie" a lady said as she walked through the doors

my mom and i quickly stood up and walked towards her.

"hi. i'm his wife, and this is our daughters" my mom said and pointed to me, and katty who was holding onto my hand

"hi" she greeted

"i'm sorry... but we did everything we could do" the nurse said and looked down

"no! no! please no!" my mom screamed

this time she coupdn't hold in the pain. she let the tears run freely down her cheeks.

i just stood there and made the tears roll down.

i picked up katty and hgged her tightly.

"what wrong?" she asked frightened

"shh" i said stroking her hair lightly

"i'm sorry for your loss ma'am" the nurse said

my mom wiped her tears away and straightened out her outfit

"yeah.. i'm sorry about that too" she said and made one more tear roll down

"come on mom. we need to go" i said and sniffled as i tugged onto her ar

"um.. yeah' she whispered and started walking with me

-back at the airport-

"mommy.... is daddy comming with us?" katty asked as she sat on her lap

"i'm sorry sweetie..... but he isn't..." my mom said and made a few tears roll down her cheek

"what? why?" katty asked and started to pout. i also noticed that there were tears forming in her eyes

i got up and sat next to them.

as i sat own. my mom let out a sob and put her hands in her face.

"shh' i said and started rubbing her back

"mommy... please don't cry. i'm sowwy" katty apologized and hugged her tightly

by now, there weren't anymore tears that were falling out. it's not that i'm heartless. it's just i've wasted all my tears crying i guess? i don't know. i wanted to cry, and just let it all out. but nothing's comming out.

"ma'am, i think your plane is now boarding" a lady told us

i lokked up and nodded at her.

"come on mom we gotta go" i whispered to her nd she cried even more harder

"mom...... let's go" i whispered and she nodded lightly

i helped her up and grabbed katty's hand.

we all took our luggage and began boarding the plane.

this was supposed to be a family vacation. but since my father is now gone. i don't even know the meaning of family anymore..