Perfectly Imperfect

chapter 41 - found what i needed

i woke up to the feeling of the hot sun rays burning my face.

i groaned and shifted my body so that now my face is facing down on a pillow.

"i know you love sleep just as much as i do. but you gotta get up because breakfast is ready" i heard someone say. i think it was..... jeric?

"i'm not hungry" i mumbled into the pillow

"you didn't eat your dinner yesterday. you didn't even eat the mcdonald's you bought!" he exclaimed

"you've gotta eat" jeric said and then i felt the bed dip.

"i'm good" i said as i sat up, and to find jeric sitting next to me

"please.. i know you're sad because your dad is gone. trust me, we're all sad. but you can't make this the reason why you're starving yourself" jeric said

i sighed and looked at him.

"i just... i miss him so much. i know when i was like 13, i remember i told him that i hope he dies. but now... i regret every single word i said to him" i said and made tears run down my cheeks

"shhhh. come on. you can fight this. tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising. it's okay not to be okay" jeric whispered and began rubbing my back softly to comfort me

i wiped my tears and looked at him.

"well... i am going to have to move on someday. why not try now?" i asked him and sent him a weak smile

"come on. you're breakfast is going to get cold if you don't eat it" jeric said as he stood up

i nodded and stood up as well.

"i'm just going to was my face and fix my hair" i said before jeric could walk through the door

jeric turned around to face me. "alright. just make sure you come down for breakfast" he said and then began walking out the door

i walked into the restroom and closed the door. i locked it as well.

i went through the drawers and found what i needed.

a razor.