Ruin my life (Gustav åhr)

eighteen

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Gus

I guess we were both not meant to be. Fuck energy. I lied to myself, Lauren was too good for me either way, i stared at my ceiling, i mean was i supposed to show up in Hawaii? I doubt that. If she really fucked wit me, she wouldn't fuck around with some rando Hawaii guy. I closed my eyes tightly, i wasn't sure what to do. I guess i just had to take this as a test to see if Lauren's my girl. I grabbed my phone once more and looked over flights again, the cheapest one being 1000, i sighed, i closed my eyes and pressed buy now, once i opened my eyes i shrugged, like it didn't even cost anything.

I packed my suit case for my flight which was in two hours. Boy did i ever get lucky with this one.

Lauren

My eyes opened and immediately closed quickly as they noticed the brightness from my window, i fell over from my bed and picked myself up chuckling, making my way over to the curtains closing them. It was a beautiful sight to see out there, don't get me wrong, but it was fucking bright. I made my way down stairs for my free included breakfast in my shorts and tank top. I grabbed myself breakfast and sat down alone staring at an old couple, most likely on vacation, i smiled as he kissed his wife and handed her a strawberry, so cute. I stared down at my plate and sighed, love always seemed to be toxic when it came to me, i was probably the source of it. I threw out my plate and made my way upstairs again. Once the door opened i fell into my bed and let myself drift off to sleep.

4 hours later

Finally my eyesight was good as i awoke, i looked over to my phone on the side of my bed and hoped i'd gotten some news from someone, you know who.
But of course their wasn't. Kalani had messaged me though...

i smirked at my phone and then i heard a light knock on my door. I tied my bathing suit top and walked to it, opening it slowly. There stood the black and pink haired boy i dreaded to see. "Here i am."
I rolled my eyes, his hands grabbed my waist and pushed me towards my bed, he shut the door with his leg and climbed on top of me, once i'd fell onto the bed. I hesitated to smile,
"What're you doing here?"
"You message me about you being with some guy and you don't think i'm gonna take a flight here to change your mind? I'm crazy for you Laury."
I sighed, "Layla."
He rolled his eyes this time, "Her mom died."
"She cheated on you." I replied, he sighed,
"You have better pussy."
"She posted you on instagram and you didn't message me all day when you could've, listen," i sighed as i continued to speak,
"We have to stop with this jealousy stuff, we aren't together yet we keep tripping over one another's actions. I can't live like that, why aren't we together if we're so in like with each other?"
"Lauren i told you, i'm not ready for that, but i can promise you i am completely yours, my dick, my heart, my entire body, and my soul." He leaned down and kissed me and i kissed back, no hesitation.
"Kalani is waiting for me at the beach..." I spoke as we pulled away,
"You actually met a guy?" He furrowed his eyebrows and i nodded, "Sadly."
"What'd you guys do?" He sat next to me, unimpressed.
"He kissed me but i pulled away, i was just mad at you, which is wrong to do to the both of you.." I admitted and sighed, i looked at Gus into his eyes,
"I can't be with you Gus, unless it's a hundred percent, i don't wanna live knowing im never gonna hurt someone but they have many chances to hurt me because we aren't actually together, i've known you, i've been with you in different ways and i would love to be with you for real. We've been on vacation together we've been fucked up together and this has been the best year of my life, I want you to be my boyfriend, i'm ready, despite all your flaws i see none, i felt myself fall for you and im admitting it, i'm in love with you." I let it go, all my feelings i've let them go. He stared at me blankly, his mouth open, but he had nothing to say.
After a long pause, he finally spoke, 
"Can we spend this last time in hawaii and i'll decide before we leave.?" 
"Sure." i replied sadly, i cannot believe he didn't feel the same way.