Ruin my life (Gustav åhr)

forty one

gus pov

My hand felt like it was breaking as Lauren gripped onto it. My bones felt like they were shattering,
"Lauren my hand!" I yelled, she screamed at me, "You fucking push a baby out of you!"
I pulled my hand out of hers, she pulled onto my shirt and squeezed my shoulder.
"i see the head!" Our home nurse said,
"It fucking hurts!" Lauren screamed as she pushed, Tracy was standing in the door way, he looked disgusted, "Push!" The nurse yelled,
"Fuck!" She screamed again, she was sweating like crazy, i couldn't imagine the pain she was feeling.
"You got this Laury, you can do it!" I smiled at her and she screamed again, and then we heard our baby cry.

"What a beautiful baby, it's a boy!" The nurse said as she direct me closer to her, she held the baby, "Do you wanna cut the umbilical cord?" I looked at Lauren a bit grossed out, "I mean i guess." The nurse handed me the tools to do so and helped me do it. It was disgusting. She handed the baby wrapped in a small blanket to Lauren. I walked to her and smiled as she held our life in her hands, she giggled looking at the baby, "Its a boy Gus.." she looked up at me,
"you know what that means..?" she bit her lip,
"We have a little you...he's going to be like you..so if you ever...ykno...he'll be mini you." I painfully looked at Laury, "I'm sorry, don't think like that, i can't wait for his first tattoo..." I smiled at Lauren, she rolled her eyes, "at least wait to get excited, he's only like three minutes old." We laughed, "Here.." Lauren held the baby up and handed him to me, i held him softly staring into his barely open eyes, they were dark brown like mine, i fell in love with him, he was my new world.
"Tracy." I looked over at my best friend,
"He's so beautiful.." I cried, Tracy walked closer to me and we both stared at Lauren and i's child.
"He really is..." Tracy said,