Ruin my life (Gustav åhr)

twenty three

Lauren
four months later

I walked down the rainy streets of New york. I had no umbrella and i was almost soaked, people stormed past me, their umbrellas keeping me slightly covered as i watched the sidewalk as i walked. I bumped into someone very hard and almost fell over, "You okay?" I heard a very familiar voice ask, i looked up to see Gustav right in front of me. A smile escaped from my lips, "Yeah! How are you?" I asked, he shrugged a sad look on his face.
"Can we grab coffee or something?" I questioned and he scratched the back of his neck, his pink and black hair was down from the wet weather,
"I was headed to a date but i'll ditch it for you."
I held a disappointed look as we turned to continue walking the way i walked, "A date huh?" I said,
"Yeah a tinder date, Trace said it'd be good for me." He sighed as we entered a nearby coffee shop.
"You seeing anyone?" He asked curiously, I declined.
"Really? It's been awhile i thought you'd have at least gone on dates."
"No, im busy Gus, always travelling. Although i did go back to Belgium, Mark offered me a trip of my choosing and i chose exactly where we were, same room. The night i was there is when i followed your instagram." We ordered our drinks and sat down at a table. "Did you get my text that night?"
"Wait that was you?" I furrowed my eyebrows and he nodded, "Changed my number."
"I'm so sorry, it sounded creepy." I apologized and he chuckled, "That's okay." He sipped on his hot chocolate. There was a long pause of silence.
"I missed you Gus, you look really good." I smiled lightly and he nodded, "You get more and more beautiful the more i see you Laury." He smiled at me and i felt butterflies in my stomach, i hadn't heard that nickname in so long.
"Gus i can't take us not being friends, travelling the way i have and living the way i have, i miss having you around, following me, i don't know, you made my trips better." I sighed.
"Laury move in with me. Today. Now. I'll bring a truck just go pack your stuff." He said spontaneously and i chuckled, "is that a joke?"
"No. Im completely serious." He had a straight face and i hesitated to respond.
"Be my fucking girlfriend Lauren. I made the mistake of letting you go and we wasted a year without each other, a year that could've been filled with so much more happiness, i've been taking so many bars. You helped me. Without you i needed to feel numb constantly." I reached over and held his hand, he squeezed mine. "I'm gonna help you Gus."
"I promise." I added,
"Be mine Lauren. Please, move in with me. Be fucking all mine, i'm not wasting another day." He begged and i bit my lip, "Let's."

"Lauren, what're you doing?" Mandy stood at my door as i packed the sixth box. "Moving out." I replied dryly as i taped it. She sipped her coffee as she watched me, "Where you moving?"
"I'm moving in with Gus." I smiled as i said the words, she walked towards me and began helping me unfold another box and tape the bottom.
"I thought you both stopped talking?"
"We bumped into each other, he said he's ready to be my boyfriend. He begged me to move in, and i think it's gonna be good for the two of us." I packed a few more of my items and she stood up and smiled at me, "Lauren im glad things are moving forward for you, i'm sorry i've been a bitchy friend, you've been so good to me, i hope Gus treats you the way you should be." I leaned in and hugged her tightly,
"Thanks."

Once i finally finished packing Gus began loading the truck he'd rented and we decided to leave my big furniture and keep what was really meaningful to me since Gus already had furniture. We stopped at a paint store and i bought a few paint cans that Gus didn't get to see because i wanted them to be a surprise and we headed to his house. We put the ten boxes in his living room and pulled out the paint tools we needed.
"Are you ready?" i asked and he smiled questionably,
"I think so."

We grabbed our paint brushes after moving his couch and tv and began painting the walls, they were dark grey, and i had gotten a light pink can for an accent wall for behind the bed. "I like this Lauren, you out did yourself." He smiled,
"its for your hair." I chuckled.

We continued to paint and Gus stopped for a pause and went to the washroom. I took this as an opportunity to stand by the bathroom door and wait, as soon as the door opened i rolled his face with the paint roller and painted him.
"Laury!" He laughed, i began chuckling,
"You're not getting away with that!" He began chasing me around the apartment with a paintbrush as we both giggled. I jumped onto his bed with a smirk, "Try me."
He shrugged and threw paint at me from the brush, i gasped as he did so. I stood up and pouted, he smiled lightly and leaned in giving me a kiss.
"Let's finish this shit so we can go to bed."

I awoke in MY bed, next to Gustav Ahr. I smiled so much it hurt, i rolled over and gave him a kiss. How could i be so lucky? I mean after this long year i really thought we were never going to speak again. I was astonished. "Wow, this is what i get to wake up to everyday forever?" He flashed a smile, "thats rough Lauren." I rolled my eyes, "Mean."
"Im kidding you look so beautiful." He pecked my lips. "I'm going to L.A today, you working?"
I shook my head, "Come with me then." He responded.
"till when?" I asked, "A week."
"For what?"
"Tour, we're planning our tour."
My eyes widened, "WHAT?"
"Yeah, we're hoping its a European tour."
"Gus, thats fucking amazing." I jumped ontop of him and gave him a big kiss, he kissed me back roughly.
"Our flight is like, now." He checked the time,
"What?" I gasped and rushed to my box of clothes and threw them into a suitcase, Gus chuckled, "We have an hour Lauren."
"That's just as bad as leaving now!" I yelled.

And once i again i was on a plane.