My Tutor was my Bully

Prologue

I am clutching my bed sheet and my head is moving from side to side...

I'm having a nightmare... I can't stop it but I want it to stop. Gusto ko ng magmulat ng mga mata pero hindi ko magawa.

"You ugly mouse!"

"HEY BILLIE!  COME ON, SMILE SHOW ME YOUR BLOODY TEETH DARLING"

"No please... "- I grunted in my sleep.

"WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?! " - I shouted at her.

She just gave me a mocking smile and she look back to her friends whose busy laughing at me.

"Because my friends hates you. And who my friends hate, I'll hate too"- she simply said and then throw me the bucket that was full of water and ice.

"NOOOOOOO STOPPPPP!!!!! " - kasabay ng pagsigaw ko ay ang pagbangon ng katawan ko sa kama.Hingal na hingal at sobrang pawis.

Tinago ko ang mukha ko sa mga palad ko at umiyak.
Why can't these nightmare leave me alone?!,  it's been 3 years since that happened but it still haunt me in my sleep everyday as if it just happened yesterday.

Nagulantang ako ng may biglang kumatok sa pinto ng kwarto ko.

"Billie are you alright? "- I heard my mom's voice.

"Uh yeah.. It's just a nightmare again mom"- I shouted back.

"Do you want me to come in? "- she asked.

Napabuntong hininga ako.

"No mom.. I'm alright. Thank you"- I said.

Napasabunot ako ng buhok ko. My mom, she doesn't know what I've been through 3 years ago. She didn't know that I was bullied in my high school days.

Bumaba ako sa kama at nagpasyang pumunta sa banyo para maghilamos. It's still 2 in the morning. Matutulog nalang ako ulit mamaya.

Pagkatapos ko maghilamos tumingin ako sa salamin pero napaatras ako ng mukha ng babaeng yun ang nakita ko.

"Stop haunting me!!! "- I said through gritted teeth kahit na mag isa lang naman ako sa banyo.

I must be hallucinating again. Kinuha ko ang gamot ko sa lagayan at uminom. It calms my nerves.

Nagpa psychologist ako before simula nung nabully ako at sabi ng doctor it's my fear and phobia kaya ako nag ha-hallucinate minsan.

I'm wondering where is that woman right now. Natahimik lang kasi ang buhay ko nung high school nuong grumaduate na sila ng mga kaibigan nya.

Since that day until now tahimik ang buhay ko. Wala ng nambubully sakin pero tuwing gabi naman lagi akong hinahabol ng masamang ala ala na iyon.

I hate her so much. I hate her for making me feel this kind of fear. For making me afraid to trust someone again.
She's just a pretty face but she's a demon. A demon who ruined me on my teenage years.