Naalimpungatan ako ng maramdaman ko na may humahawi sa buhok ko. I slowly open my eyes only to see the face of the demon disguised as an angel infront of me.
Tinabig ko ang kamay nya at tumayo ako. Umusod ako sa head board ng kama ko.
"Who give you the permission to just enter in my room? " - I asked coldly.
She chuckled before standing up.
"Oh Billie you haven't change. You do still hate me so much. "- she said in a teasing way.
"ANSWER ME! "- gigil na sigaw ko.
Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko. I want to hurt her but I know I shouldn't because it could just worsen my panic attack.
"Instead of shouting at me why don't you just thank me? I brought you here."
I glare at her and she just smile.
"Btw it's nice to finally see you again Billie. "
"Don't call me on my name. I hate your voice woman!! "- I shouted through gritted teeth.
"You know what? I'm not here to fight. I'm here to teach you"- she replied in a calm way.
I toss off my blanket. Bumaba ako ng kama at nilapitan sya. She was taken a back ng mabilis ang hakbang ko at nasa harapan na nya ako kaagad. I can still remember na mas matangkad sya sakin dati but right now I'm taller than her by just an inch. She's wearing a heels pero hanggang tainga kolang sya.
"Listen woman kung ikaw lang din naman ang magtuturo sakin,wag nalang. I can study on my own"- I said while looking straight in her eyes.
She burst out laughing kaya nagsalubong ang kilay ko.
Hinawakan ko sya sa wrist at inangat yun.
"What's funny? "- I asked irritated.
She look down at my hand on her wrist. She stop laughing and her eyes were glued there.
"You're holding me. "- she stated.
"And what's with that? "- I asked confused.
She look in to my eyes.
"3 years ago you swear that you will not put your hands on me. Because you hate me so much"
Unti unti ko syang binitawan.
"Clean yourself. You look like a mess"- she said at tinalikuran nako.
Binuksan nya ang pinto pero bago lumabas lumingon muna sya sakin.
"Let's set aside our old issues Billie. I'm not here to be your bully. I'm here as your tutor. I'll be waiting downstairs kid"- she said before closing the door.
Pumasok ako ng banyo at hinanap kaagad ang aking gamot. I drink 2 dahil kanina pa pala ako nanginginig.
Naghilamos din ako at inayos ang sarili ko.
Pagkababa ko nakita ko sya sa sofa na nakaupo. She glance at me pero nilagpasan ko lang sya. Pumunta ako ng kusina para uminom ng tubig.
Nagulat ako ng pagharap ko nandun sya nakatayo malapit sakin.
"What do you want? "- I asked irritated.
"Water"- she said.
"Edi kumuha ka "- sabi ko
"How can I when you're blocking the way? "
Ngayon kolang na realized na nasa likod ko pala yung pitsel ng tubig.
"Where's my mom? "
"She left nung sinabi kong gising kana. Now I hope you don't mind can you step aside so I could get a a glass of water? "
Anger boil inside of me. She's still the same bossy girl I know.
"Wag mokong utusan"- I warned.
"Oh Billie iinom lang ako ng tubig. Masyado ka naman mainit"
"Shut up!! "
Iniwan ko sya sa kusina, nagpunta ako sa sala at naupo ako sa sofa.
I'm still angry. Angry because ako at ang babaeng yun ang tanging tao dito sa bahay.
After a while naupo nadin sya.
"Where's your notes? "
"What notes? "
She give me a boring look.
"I'm going to teach you and as a student you should take down note to whatever I will say in here. "
"So? "
Nagsalubong ang kilay nya. I admit she's so pretty, mas lalo syang gumanda ngayon but I know that she's just a pretty face because deep inside of her hides the demon who ruined myself!!
"I want you to get it so that we can start"
Hindi ko sya pinakinggan
"Billie"
Ignore
"Come on kid"
Ignore
"Go upstairs and get it Billie"
Ignore
"What the!!! Don't touch me! "- histerikal na sabi ko at tinabig ang kamay nya.
Tinaas naman nya iyon as if she's surrendering herself.
"Fine. Just go get it if you don't want me touching you"- naiiling na sabi nya at bumalik sa pwesto nya.
Tumakbo ako paakyat at kinuha na ang buong bag ko.
Tahimik na naupo ako sa pwesto ko.
"Sit here para mas maintindihan mo"- she said and tap her side.
Nagdalawang isip ako.
"Come on. Don't worry I won't bite. "- she said.
"You said that before but you end up bullying me"
Nag iwas sya ng tingin.
"I told you I'm not here as your bully. I'm here as your tutor. Whatever happens in the past I already regreted all of it. "
"I don't believe in you. I will never believe in you"
Nakita kona naman ang pagdaan ng emosyon sa mga mata nya but she just blink it away.
"Let's start. " - she said and then tap her side again ignoring my last sentences.
Naupo ako sa tabi nya. Her sweet scent lingered in my nose. She open the book and started discussing me the first lesson we have for today.
I'm busy writing down all the important details of the lesson for today when I notice that she stop talking.
I look at her way and our eyes met.
She averted her gaze and then she started talking again.
My forehead knotted to her behavior. It feels like she wanted to say something but she can't voice it out.
I shrug my shoulders and continue writing.
My heart beat was getting louder and louder at masakit na iyon sa dibdib.
Binagsak ko ang notes ko sa table dahilan para mapatingin sya sakin.
"What's wrong? "
"I... I can't breath "
She tried to touch me but I move away.
"Don't.. "- I said almost a whisper bago mabilis na umakyat sa taas.
Dumiretso ako sa banyo at hinanap ang gamot ko.
I'm hyperventilating. Not because of some romantic feeling but because I'm just near to the person who caused me fear.
Naiiyak na napaupo ako sa sahig ng banyo.
Why? Why am I suffering from this kind of fear?
She look so soft but I don't want her touching me because I'm afraid that she might hurt me again.
I hate her. And I hate myself more for becoming this kind of sensitive.
BINABASA MO ANG
My Tutor was my Bully
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