Man up, Beam!

11. Am I too late?

AN: Ahhhh...this is getting too sad and i dont want to prolong this misery further. so lets just get these two decide things :)                

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                       A dim ray of sunshine sneaked through the transparent sliding door into the living room. The curtains fluttered gently giving out a low hissing sound. The first light of the crack of dawn fell on Kit's face brightening his features. Kit's eyes and nose had turned red as he stood there crying. His lips were quivering and his hands were still fisting on Beam's shirt collar. Beam was completely frozen on his spot that he dint knew how to react. He studied Kit's face and the only thought he had now was.. 'God...what have I done to this beautiful person!!'

           Slowly but steadily Beam raised his right hand and wiped the tears from Kit's face. Kit flinched at Beam's gentle touch and let go off the collar he was holding. Before Kit could completely take his hands off, Beam caught them with his hands. 

            Kit was taken aback and tried to pull his hands off from Beam's hold. Beam just tightened his hold on Kit's hand and looked at him with pleading eyes. Kit gulped unable to avert his eyes from Beam's face. 'Shit..be strong Kit...you cant loose now' Kit thought to himself but he could feel his face softening under Beam's gaze..like always.

            Beam searched Kit's eyes for confirmation. He dint want to make another mistake. He had caused enough damage already and every word he would talk from now on will either bring him close to his Kit or will end things between him and Kit in a most depressing way. Kit eventually lowered his gaze from Beam's face but made no effort to move away from Beam. He knew what he said to Beam sometime back and he could also see that Beam understood what he meant.

         "Kit..", Beam called gently and Kit just hummed in response.

          "I don't want to assume things, Kit, especially now when I feel too lost and hopeless", Beam said in a neutral voice.

          "I am not telling you anything..jerk", Kit snarled at Beam.

         Beam nodded and looked at Kit debating what to say next. First time ever in his life, Beam felt so scared. Still he gathered every ounce of courage he had and pulled Kit near him. The unexpected move made Kit jolt and he stumbled lightly which made him grip Beam's hands to steady himself.

         "Kit, if..if I say I want to court you..will you allow me to?", Beam asked holding his gaze steady on Kit.

         Kit's eyes widened and his mouth hung open in shock, "What? You..how? I..", Kit found it difficult to ask anything or say something. He was breathing heavily and his cheeks flushed red.

        Beam was stunned seeing Kit. 'Is he...blushing? Really?' thought Beam mesmerized. It was so unreal for Beam that Kit was actually blushing because of him.

         "L..let me...go" Kit stuttered squirming under Beam's gaze. He tried to pull his hands again but obviously Beam was stronger. 

          "Let me go now, Beam. I warn you", Kit said more like whining than warning.

         "I don't want to", Beam replied without any hesitation, "I answered every question you asked, Kit. Now just answer the one question I asked".

           Kit shook his head with a defeated look. "Why should I answer you? You never cared anyway till now..", Kit started tearing up again.

           Beam loosened his grip on Kit's hand and Kit took that as an opportunity to pull himself away from Beam. He took two steps away from Beam and turned around trying to avoid Beam.