Let me save you (Completed/Editing)

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Chapter Twenty-Nine - Let Me Save You

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-Jordan-

"Better. Blaine is recovering, he's unfortunately still having seizures but they are dissociative. The doctor said that his seizures are due to his PTSD. I'm Usually, they're triggered when he hears loud sounds or when he thinks about what happened. Apart from that, he seems to be getting better." I say as I fidget with the hem of my jacket.

"Have you told him that you plan on ending things?" She asks jotting something down on her paper. I frown, I wanted to tell him but my dad said that it's best to not add on to everything that he's going through. At night, he wakes up screaming my name as if something bad had happened to me.

"I haven't. I don't know if I will. Everything is different now, I don't want to hurt him. He's been through so much." I look into Jackie's eyes. She knows my whole life but I don't know much about her. I don't even know how old she is or where she's from. Weirdly, I am confiding in a stranger but with her, it feels natural. She has an aura that makes me want to explain everything to her. She is not biased in the advice that she gives me, she's honest.

"Sometimes, we think that we know what's best for other people when in reality, we are wrong. What Blaine needs is support, if he's going through this, he'll want to feel normal. I'm sure he doesn't want anyone to pity him or treat him differently." She says placing the clipboard down.

I nod, "What do I do when I feel like I'm going to slip up? Yesterday I thought about drinking, Blaine had a seizure and afterward, all I wanted to do was find something to drink."

"If you feel like you're going to slip, hold on to Blaine. You said yourself that the reason that you're doing this is for him. To be with him. Will you jeopardize your future with him by letting your self relapse? "

"I suppose you're right. I want to be better for him, he needs me."

"You need each other." She adds before getting up from the desk. "For our next meeting, I want you to come to the group. It's one thing to listen to me but another to listen to people who are also going through the same thing." She says as she packs her bag.

I frown. I hate going to group meetings. They annoy me and I always want to leave as soon as I get there.

"Fine." I nod before getting up from my desk. My dad is staying in Westbrook for the weekend to take care of some business. When he comes back, he wants us to talk about when I will resume my position as Alpha. As much as it stressed me out, it kind of kept me busy. I will also have to talk to Hunter. I've seen him around the house and in the garden but we haven't said a word to each other.

I walk Jackie out of the house and wave goodbye to her. Aaron always loved the start of a new year, he said that January was the perfect month of start over and reset. I thought it was kind of silly but now, I might take his advice. I can start over, be better, and maybe, be happy.

"Jordan?"Hunter says from behind me. Ugh!

I turn to him, "Yes." I answer flatly. He frowns, "I'm sorry. I really am, it was never my intention to lie or keep things from you. At the time, we weren't thinking straight because we thought we would lose you. I mean what I said that night at the hospital, I'm a friend to you. I care about you and all of the people in this pack. I'm sorry."

If you valued your words you wouldn't have lied. "Apology accepted but it's hard for me to forgive. I hope you can understand." I say sincerely. He nods with a disappointment frown, "I understand. Have a good one." He says before walking away.