Death University

Chapter 72

Chapter 72: Cut Ties

Where do broken souls go?

I'm not the violent type of person. But now, I badly want to punch Chad. How could he be this heartless? I never expected him to be like this. Oo, sandali lang naman kaming nagkausap at tungkol 'yon sa pagkakagusto niya kay Julia. Pero ano 'to? He has done something unforgivable! Someone killed herself because of him! At hinayaan lang ni Chad ang lahat ng 'to na mangyari!

I haven't seen him for so long. Hindi siya pumapasok. Or maybe because he hates his aunt so much which is our teacher? Kaya hindi siya pumapasok? Sa isang subject lang kami magkaklase kaya hindi ko alam kung pumapasok ba siya sa ibang subjects niya o hindi.

Wala na akong ganang pumasok pero pinilit ako ni Julia kaya wala na akong nagawa. Magagalit daw siya sa'kin at magtatampo kung hindi ako papasok. Importante pa rin daw ang pag-aaral.

Buong klase, lutang ako. Wala akong maintindihan sa pinagsasabi at pinagsusulat ni Prof Leonsio sa board. At wala akong pakialam. Sinasabihan naman ako ni Julia na makinig pero hindi talaga ako nakikinig.

Why do I have a soft heart, anyway?

Nakakaawa... Whoever she was, she didn't deserve it. I don't even know her name. And I was so surprised that it was Chad's child she's pregnant with.

Nung natapos na ang klase, lutang pa din ako. Wala pa rin akong imik habang naglalakad palabas ng classroom ni Prof. I still can't get over with the scene.

Nagulat naman ako ng hatakin ako ni Julia palayo. "Zaya, please, huwag namang ganito. Dapat mag-concentrate ka sa pag-aaral mo."

"I know, Julia. But what happened is too much for me right now—"

"Can you please prioritize yourself? Why do you always think of other people first? Mabuti naman 'yan pero sobra na 'to!"

I felt my blood boil at what she said. "I'm not selfish, Julia! I think of the people around me! The world doesn't revolve just around me!"

I said what I said. Hindi ko na na-control ang sarili ko. I know she cares for me that's why she's mad at what I'm doing. Ito parati ang issue naming dalawa. Pero kasi hindi lang sa'kin nakapalibot ang mundo.

The sky turned dark but I don't care at this point.

"What are you implying? Na selfish ako? All I do was care for you! Minsan kailangan mo ring unahin yung sarili mo, Zaya!"

"I know I'm thinking of other people pero pinili ko 'to... I chose to care for them! And I didn't say that you're selfish! Ikaw ang nagsabi niyan!"

Kasalanan ko bang ganito ako? I have a soft heart for those weak and broken people. I can't stand seeing people like that. Everyone deserves to be treated well.

"Zaya, hindi naman mali yung ginagawa mo... Pero please... isipin mo naman yung sarili mo. What if Madame finds out about this? She'll be damn curious on why on earth you're doing this instead of killing people."

She has a point. When this reaches the headmistress, she'll be really intrigued. She'll be intrigued why I'm doing this instead of killing people. And this might lead to her killing me, para walang hadlang. Pero hindi ko yata kaya yung ganito. Hindi kaya ng konsensya ko...

"Zaya, do you understand me now?" Hindi ako sumagot at naglakad paalis. Hinabol niya naman ako. "Zaya, if this reaches Madame—"

"I know what will happen. Don't worry about me, I can handle myself."

Hinablot niya naman ang braso ko. "Bakit mo ba palaging sinasabi 'yan? Dahil may kapangyarihan ka kaya ba ang lakas lakas na ng loob mo?"

Binulong niya lang sa'kin 'yon pero may diin sa boses niya. And what she said, triggered me. Ganon ba talaga ang tingin niya sa'kin? Na ginagawa ko ang lahat ng 'to dahil may kapangyarihan ako? I don't even think of my power that way! Hindi ko naiisip na gawin ang mga hindi dapat dahil kaya ko namang gamitin ito laban kay Madame!