Hold Tight |Jason McCann|

Chapter 40

| Savanna |

I don't know when I had fallen asleep, but remember being in Jason's arms as I did. I had never been a heavy sleeper, I woke up anytime a door opened; specifically when Jason comes home late and I'd be sleeping and I knew he was home just by hearing the door open and close despite his efforts of being quiet.

Home.

I longed for it. Thinking about curling up in my sheets and finally sleeping in a familiar setting. Stepping on the cold marble floor I always hated because it wasn't ideal for Canada's cold weather, I never thought I'd miss it so much. Family. I had no idea what Jason had told my mom or my sister, and I found it highly unlikely that he had told them the truth. But my brother? I was surprised he wasn't here or on the next flight out.

Family. Our own family.

When I woke up I realised I was no longer in the hotel. The all too familiar setting of Jason's private jet surrounded me and instantly I sank back in to the plush bed, feeling tears brim my eyes remembering the previous events, I couldn't even say the words again. Was this normal to be feeling like this? I know I've never been pregnant, but it felt like I had been growing a being inside of me for months when really, it was only a few weeks without me even knowing. But it hurt so bad.

My head still hurt, sometimes stinging as I frowned a little too much and the cut on it only worsened from the pain. My leg didn't feel as sore although all I felt was discomfort as it wasn't healing any time soon. Most of all, my bruised waist was still unbearably painful to touch however, the frequent layering of ointments really helped. But nothing would help me mentally knowing the reason why I was always in so much stomach pain when escaping with Eva was because of me being pregnant. It started right after I was kicked in the stomach when I was taken, and that's when it all added up.

As I slipped in to a never ending train of thought, my eyes darted to the door ahead of me, Jason appearing. With his phone to his ear, the concerned and serious look on his face soon changed.

After exchanging a brief goodbye, he came over and sat at the edge of the bed.

"Sleep well? I'm surprised you've only just woken up" he chuckled as he kissed the back of my hand, right now, he was the only person who took me out of my train of thought, not allowing my brain to focus on what had happened.

"I must still have some drugs in my system that are making me so tired" I replied.

His eyes were slightly tired looking but he would never admit that he was tired. This was Jason McCann we were talking about.

"It's good, you don't need to be around everything I got going on right now" he simply said, proceeding to place soft kisses along my hand and up my arm.

"Did you find out about Eva?" I asked making him slowly pull away, looking at me.

With hesitation, he spoke, "I did... she, she's okay princess..." He has very little confidence in his voice but perhaps that was because he was just tired but regardless, the news made my heart fill with a tiny bit of joy knowing he had found her and she was not with those people anymore.

"Really? Where was she? Is she okay? Did you speak to her?"

He chuckled, "I didn't speak to her... we are- we got her safe and she's admitted in to a hospital near us," He spoke making me smile regardless. This was the best news I had heard in a while.

"Thank you..." I trailed off opening my arms and wrapping them around Jason's as I hugged him tight. I felt tears leave my eyes and I buried my head in to his shoulder to prevent him from seeing. It was that kind of cry that was just based on memories, every time he was kind to me it reminded me of the news only I knew and how I was avoiding telling him.

I felt his arms wrap around my waist and pull me on to his lap, "I love you" I whispered before pulling away. His lips curled in to a smile and his eyes glistened with happiness and love.

As I closed my eyes, I felt his lips fall on top of mine in a perfect movement. It was the first time in a long time that I had felt his lips on mine and I missed the feeling, the feeling of safety. It felt better than ever. His lips guided mine, slowly but passionately, we moved in sync. His hands roaming my thighs and back as I picked at the small hairs at the back of his neck, occasionally running my hand through his fluffy hair causing him to release small moans in to the kiss.

This was my favourite kind of safety.

"I have to tell you-" I was cut off as I crawled off of his lap and sat cross legged on the bed.

"You need to know something, Savanna" he spoke, seriousness taking over his voice.

My heart skipped a beat because I was scared of any news he might be telling me and by the looks of it, it was bad. I didn't know if I could deal with anymore bad news.

"What is it?" I asked.

He didn't look at me and when he turned away, I placed my hand on his check to make him look at me. "Jason?"

"It's about your brother... he helped Cole get in to our house and trash the place."

Confusion ran through as I struggled to even comprehend what he was saying.

"What?" I breathed out in disbelief.

"He was pissed at me for what I did to Cole and Cole tricked him in to thinking he was just going to mess up our house a little but really, it was just a plan. The night you were taken, Damien showed up. He was sent a picture of you and he told me everything and that's how I knew Cole helped take you."

Once he ended, I genuinely felt like I was going to collapse yet again. I couldn't even figure out a reaction to his words because it was so out of this world.

"Did he come to Brazil?" I asked.

He shook his head a no, "I didn't let him and I'm sure he will be waiting to speak to you once you get home. I know he's your brother but sweetheart, I can't trust him with my work anymore. I need you to understand that."

"I understand" I whispered as he sighed.

"You wanted to tell me something?" He questioned. There was no way I could tell him about the baby now because I knew Jason. His anger was not one to play with and he would not only blame himself, but he'd blame Alex for it and he'd be out for revenge. I needed Jason with me right now, I couldn't let him leave again.

And so I lied and said, "Oh it was nothing. I was just about to ask about Damien" before I kissed his lips to avoid him spotting that I was lying through my teeth.

I knew it was a temporary way of handling it but I was thinking about Jason. I couldn't risk losing him again.