Hold Tight |Jason McCann|

Chapter 57

| Savanna |

I couldn't believe this happened. I knew Alex was planning something, Eva practically admitted that to me when she came to my college the other day, but I wasn't prepared for this. I swear every moment of that felt like 6 months ago, being thrown around like meat to strangers. I felt horrible, as if I was nothing- just something that belonged to Jason and everybody who hated him used me to get to him. Then again, I knew being with Jason meant there would be risk, and trust me, I still wouldn't replace him with anybody else- but that didn't mean I didn't wish for something better, a place simpler. A place where Jason could be Jason without anybody being thrown off by 'McCann'. A place where he and I could attend a party, whether that be in a club or in the most remote area ever, and not worry about what could happen or who could be there.

A place where we could be together and there was only reward, no risk.

Jason was angry, I could see it on his face and as we reached our home and the night was soon ending, the tiredness I once felt earlier had disappeared.

He was planning something, I knew it.

"Jason, what are you going to do?" I asked him as we walked in to our house, the lights flickering on automatically.

"What I have to do, Savanna" he responded, I was surprised he did to be fair. "And what is that?" I asked, grabbing a hold of his hand to pull him back to me.

"Do you know how fucking pissed I am at myself? I fucking let my brother come back again and take advantage of you. He used you, once again and I didn't fucking listen to you when you warned me." He paused, looking down at the ground, "I should have killed him the second I found him with my dad" he mumbled.

Seconds later he pulled out his gun, and checked if it was loaded before he looked up at me. "Go to sleep, please"

"No Jason, I'm not going to let you go right now. You need to think about this, you need to sleep" I told him as his phone rang in his pocket. He took it out and I looked at the caller ID seeing it was Ryan calling, probably wanting to know what to do since I'm sure they all wanted revenge. I looked at Jason, placing my hand on top of his as I caressed the back of it. "Please Jason, please handle it tomorrow, I don't want you to leave me right now" I said in a whisper as he answered the call.

I watched as he listened to what Ryan had to say before he spoke, "Come to my house tomorrow, early, got it?" A sigh of relief left my lips as he listened to me, for once.

"Thank you" I said, a small smile on my face as I placed his hands on the small of my back, stepping closer to him as he looked down at me.

He hung his head low before he nuzzled it in to my neck making me smile at how sweet he was being, I just wished it could stay like this forever. "Come, let's sleep" I whispered before taking his hand and walking up the stairs and to our room.

I removed my makeup as Jason showered, the bathroom filled with smoke as I got out of my clothes and in to Jason's shirt before I climbed in to our bed, the covers calling my name. I scrolled through my messages on my phone as Jason left the bathroom, turning the light off before approaching me as he rubbed his eyes. He was being calmer than I expected and I was hoping he was doing this because he wanted to take my advice for a change. He wore only his boxers which of course gave me a nice view of his body as he crawled in to bed next to me.

I put my phone on the table next to me before I turned to face him. He stared up at the ceiling as he extended an arm out for me. I smiled, laying my head on him as he ran his hand up and down my arm, his warmth calming me instantly.

"Why don't you get mad at me?" He asked suddenly making me look up at him, turning a little.

"For what?" I asked in a low voice.

"I put you in danger and you haven't said a word about it, how?" He continued. "Because I know how hard you work to protect me, and I know this didn't happen on purpose... none of us expected it tonight" I was trying to make him feel better about himself because I knew since he was telling me all of this, he must really be overthinking as Jason rarely ever told me how he felt because he learned to move on from things really easily. I needed to learn from him I guess.

"Savanna, I brought you to that club. Even when you said no, I convinced you to come with me" he replied, looking up at me as I shook my head. "Jason, I will be with you through everything. If I wasn't there tonight he would have planned something anyway, this isn't your fault, stop making yourself feel bad about it" I continued as I moved his hair out of his face.

"You told me when we first met that your life wasn't easy right?" I asked, waiting for him to nod and when he did, I continued, "I told you it didn't matter and I said that because now I know, even the worst of things feel easy with you" I stated.

He sighed deeply as he closed his eyes, "i don't deserve you, Savanna Montano, I don't fucking deserve you." And with that, he rolled over and pulled my body close to his, burying his head in my neck and placing kisses all over it.

And with that, I fell asleep in his arms.