A Kiss and I will Surrender || A Frerard Fanfic

Chapter 5

Mikey slept next to Gerard in his bed that night. Gerard didn't. The older brother was wide awake, even though all the fear and tears earlier had exhausted him. But he couldn't sleep. He almost waited for his father to burst through the door and beat him into a pulp. It wouldn't be the first time he would do this too. Well, last time he had only slapped him. But he also hadn't been this mad at him then. His father hadn't almost kicked his door in last time and he also hadn't slapped his mother.

Now Gerard sat upright in his bed, facing the door, having his little brothers head on his lap, with blankets draped over them. His phone was laying next to him, the display facing up to the ceiling, but no little light was repeatedly flashing up at him. Frank still hadn't responded to him. Gerard sighed quietly and leaned his head back against the headboard of his bed, staring up at his ceiling. His left hand was resting on Mikeys arm gently, his brothers warmth was comforting, his steady and soft breathing was calming Gerard down significantly.

Slowly, Gerard thought that something really bad must have happened. Maybe one of the band members got in an accident? What if someone died? Frank usually had his phone near him and would look at it from time to time. Gerard was worried and reached over to pick up his phone, checking yet again if Frank had responded by now. No, he hadn't. Bert had though.

TheBert: I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable with what I said. I don't even know if you're gay and I keep flirting with you so yeah. Sorry.

TheBert: I can stop doing this immediately. I'd like it if we could keep talking tho cause I think we would be good friends.

TheBert: Only if you like tho.

Gerard stared at his phone, glancing back up at his door before typing a reply.

Geewhiz137: It's okay. Sorry I just reply now. There was a misunderstanding with my mom and my dad freaked out and things escalated a little... I would have replied otherwise

Berts reply didn't come immediately, like it normally did, so Gerard put his phone down and looked at the time. It was 02:23am. Not really surprising then that Bert wasn't replying. He was probably asleep right now and would reply to Gerard in the morning after he woke up. The older brother sighed softly and looked down as Mikey stirred in his sleep a little. He moved his left hand from his arm to his brothers hair, playing with it a little and successfully calming him down. Mikey kind of snuggled into Gerards stomach and continued to sleep quietly. He didn't snore like Frank.

Oh, Frank. Gerard leaned his head back against the headboard again and closed his eyes softly. He would be so disappointed in him if he found out that he cut again. Wait, not if. When he found out. Because there was just no way that Frank wouldn't find out about it. Something would happen and Frank would know. They would probably hug tomorrow in school and Frank would squeeze his arm accidentally, which would make Gerard wince, and Frank would know. Or Gerard would move his arm kind of stiffly and Frank would ask why, Gerard wouldn't answer and Frank would know.

They always noticed when something was off about the other one. It was a blessing and a curse at the same time.

Gerard opened his eyes again after he heard his phone vibrate, picking it up and seeing, to his surprise, that Bert actually did reply.

TheBert: Shit that doesn't sound good. Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it? And don't worry about the other things.

Geewhiz137: Yeah I'm okay now. My brother stepped in between and stopped this whole fight. Just so you know my dad didn't hurt me. I locked myself in my bathroom and hid in there but he scared me pretty badly.

TheBert: What did he do?

And Gerard told Bert about his mental health problems, how his mom misunderstood him, about how she ran out on him before he could explain himself, how his dad yelled at him, what he yelled at him, that Frank wouldn't answer his phone and that Mikey saved him. That he felt bad that Mikey had to save him, because he was actually the older one and it was actually his job to keep Mikey save. Not the other way around. That he couldn't sleep right now because he was so scared of his father.