Midst of Chaos

VI

I closed my book with an irritated face at mas lalo akong nairita sa sarili ko dahil kahit gusto kong iblock ang number niya ay hindi ko magawa.

Maybe he'll going to think if i block him that i take him too seriously.

Maybe he'll think that I'm a loser.

Maybe he'll think that I'm no fun.

Like goodness gracious! There are a lot of thoughts running in my mind like even i think its nuisance and here i am couldn't even blocked him because there's a small percentage in me that i like how he disturbed me. That he's quite fun and a nuisance and i still like it.

Like eww.

I turned my mobile data on and visited my Facebook, i accepted his friend request fastly and then i moved to Instagram.

I'm not a private person so my social media accounts are public there i saw his continuous likes on my photos.

Sebastian liked your photo. 1s

Sebastian liked your photo. 3s

Sebastian liked your photo. 4s

Sebastian liked your photo. 6s

Sebastian started following you. Follow back

Sebastian liked your photo.  12s

Wow! Isang masigarbong palakpakan naman diyan!

I clicked the follow back and immediately turned my data off. Seconds later, my phone blinked and saw his message.

From: OGAG

Thank you for accepting my friend request and fkr following me back. Hoping that this would be a good sign in taking a step forward in becoming more than friends.

So ngayon, besshywaps kita. Titigil ko muna ang pagtatawag ng love sa yo.

Goodnight besshy! mwah!

Napakagat-labi akong binasa ang whole convo namin. I am not used to this. He's flirting, i know that. It's not my first time that someone flirted on me pero ewan, i am not feeling well with this.

I can't even flirt back. I'm afraid that if i will I'll end up picking the short stick. He is a player and I'm not.

That's why I'm afraid in entering a relationship. These days, teenagers don't seem to take them seriously that's why there are people who get hurt. Cheating. Falling out of love easily. Just fun and nothing else.

My course is hard. All courses in fact. Kaya i always tell myself that love will come to me in the right time and place. Dreams muna.

I turned my phone off and i lay in my bed. I look at the ceiling for too long hanggang sa hindi ko na alam na nakatulog na pala ako.

I woked up because of the continuous knock on the door. Kinusot ko ang mukha ko bago ako sumagot.

"Gising na!" i shouted but still ay nanatili akong nakahiga

"Maligo ka na! Baka malate tayo sa simbahan dahil sayo!" my mom shouted back

Mabilis akong bumangon at kinuha ang tuwalyang nakasabit sa rack. Naligo ako at nagbihis ng fitted na white dress na pinaresan ko ng puti din na sneakers.

Bumaba ako at kumain ng sobrang bilis dahil narinig kong pinaandar na ni papa ang kotse.

I even heard the shout of my mama nasa labas telling my father how slow i am.