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cuarenta y siete

*cw: sexual references, skip to the end for a summary if this makes you uncomfy*

changaroo:
felix
felix
felix
you better respond quiCK i need help
i can't believe i'm asking you this
felix
FELIX

me:
uhhhhhh???
hey hyung
are you okay?

changaroo:
good you're here
now hELp

me:
help with what?
what's wrong? did something happen?

changaroo:
okay so
noah is evidently sexually attracted to men
i'm sure you can put 2 and 2 together

me:
excusr ne motherfucKER
YOU CAN'T JUST BLURT SHIT OUT LIKE THAT I CHOKED ON MY CEREAL
and don't do that please i thought you were bleeding to death or something

changaroo:
WELL
it's dOnE now
what do i dO

me:
okay i know you told me to put 2 and 2 together but i might have put 5 and 8 together instead because this shit doesn't add up

changaroo:
... no it sounds about right to me
your first reaction was what i expected it to be

me:
y'all surely didn't fuck before he even told you he liked men
that SURELY didn't happen
right?

changaroo:
feliX be mature we are adults now
and if we're talking mentally, you're much more sexual than me so don't act grossed out by it

me:
oop-

changaroo:
but yeah
we did-
when we finished i figured there was no point in hiding my feelings anymore so i confessed to him and kissed him properly
but he pulled back after a while and had somewhat of a panic attack
and now he's avoiding me big style

me:
oh
he's probably just scared hyung
he's coming to terms with this thing about himself that's either brand new or something he's repressed for years
facing it head on like that can't be easy

changaroo:
i know he's scared
god i feel fucking awful.

me:
i mean i get that
but why? talk me through it

changaroo:
i knew it was a bad idea to say yes
even though he initiated it i still can't help but feel like i took advantage of him
i already hate the thought of him being uncomfortable but the fact that he's uncomfortable because of something we did makes me feel sick

me:
awww chris...
if i'm gonna help you i need to know a little more
how many times have you tried reaching out to him since?

changaroo:
yesterday i spent almost a full 3 hours calling him and texting him and trying to get him to talk to me about it

me:
and today?

changaroo:
i've just let it be
i don't want to push him any more than i already have
if he hasn't blocked me on all platforms yet i'll be surprised

me:
you haven't checked?

changaroo:
i'm terrified to
but if he doesn't text me back by the 24 hour mark i'm gonna need to check

me:
you might wanna check a little sooner than that if you think it's a possibility

changaroo:
you're right i'm just
scared
i really don't want to lose him
even if that means he doesn't wanna cross the boundary of friends

me:
you're probably the most gentlemanly person i know man
you're caring as all hell
whoever you end up with whether it's noah or not they'll be lucky to have you :)

changaroo:
you're sure my little "one night stand" didn't change your opinion of me?

me:
i'll admit i was very surprised at first-
but first of all there's nothing wrong with one night stands
and you said yourself that it wasn't initiated by you which means he wanted it to happen
you also wouldn't have known that it was a one night stand because it meant something more to you, you would've assumed the same for him
i think your reaction to the situation shows how much you actually love him

changaroo:
yeah
i do
i didn't realise how intensely until now
on a lighter note, for someone who claims to be a virgin you're awfully comfortable with dishing out advice surrounding sex
are you sure you don't have something to tell me yOung MaN?

me:
whY the sudden topic change?

changaroo:
i'm curious 👀

me:
nO cheeky bitch
i am still a virgin

changaroo:
bitch pLEASE
i do not believe for one second that y'all haven't fooled around yet

me:
wE HAVEN'T
i mean granted we weren't exactly taking things slow but we haven't fUcked

changaroo:
i can smell the bullshit through your screen

me:
you are so adamant what the hell
why don't you beliEVE meee >:[

changaroo:
ugh
okay i give up
you would have admitted it by now if it happened

me:
exactly
hoe

changaroo:
okayyyy sorry
imma go sort things out
i'll message you if i need you again but i think it'll be okay

me:
okay hyung, i'll be here
bye bye
i hope things work out

changaroo:
yeah me too
see ya felix
[seen 7:16pm]

TL;DR (for those who skipped): noah is coming to terms with his sexuality and refused to talk to chan after the younger confessed his feelings to him.