〰 Take a redhead that uses her assets to get her way in business, a curly nanny who believes in true love, a dark-haired, drop-dead gorgeous stripper and you've got a curved t(h)reat.
Then add a nerdy personal trainer, a tall, dark and handsome bo...
Shit! Mona was so pissed. And I don't blame her. I know I was fooling myself, going on a date with Ama. But my heart was faster than my mind. Well heart... more like hard-on. Jeez X. You sure know how to fuck things up. What if it will stay awkward from now on? What if Noah finds out? I hide my face in my hands and let out a scream.
I visit the small temple close to my house and kneel down. I try to calm down and center myself. I smell the heavy scent of the incents, hear the birds chirp and feel a stab in my heart. I did something really stupid here. If I had controlled myself and waited till we were ready. Then we might...
Oh shut up X. She was never going to be yours. I jump up and look at the Buddha statue. "Oh, Buddha please help me. I don't want to lose those girls. I need them both. Please help me think with my brain and not with my other head." Oh yeah, that sounds like a wholesome prayer. I chuckle and shove some money in the donation box.
I think about calling Noah, but this is not something I should tell him over the phone. He will probably punch my lights out, but I deserve it. And we've been friends for too long to keep it from him. I sigh and the phone in my hand rings. I almost drop it and see it's my sister. Oh, here we go.
But she completely blows me away. She gets straight to the point and tells me to come to the park later.
At least I get a chance to mend what I've broken. I feel really nervous all of a sudden because I have no clue what Ama thinks of all of this. Besides her not willing to marry me that is. That was smart of Mona, to ask it that way. And she's right. I don't want to ruin the relationship we have. And I definitely don't want to marry anyone at this point in my life.
And that's why I shouldn't have done what I did. Shit! I thought kissing her and dreaming about it after was bad. But having seen, touched, and licked her perfect tits has me daydreaming about them. Constantly. X, you are such an idiot! I better stick to girls I have no feelings for. Because this shit is no joke. I buy myself a coffee and walk over to the park.
I look for the girls and find them quickly. Ama's red hair and Mona's curls stand out in a crowd. I walk over to them and feel my stomach clench. Ama looks up at me and says: "Hi X."
And Mona says: "Exactly. The name says it all. Ex, before it even started." I look at Ama and see the shocked expression on her face. But her eyes tell me pretty soon she's trying not to laugh. I chuckle and all three of us burst into laughter. I relax and lean back on my hands. I look at them both and know we will be okay.
We eat and drink together and talk about everything in a relaxed manner. Ama and I both know this can't go anywhere. We talk about my parents and how they would feel about it all. They would be heartbroken if things wouldn't work out with Ama. And holidays would be forever tense. We can't do it to any of us. We're a family. A colorful, wonderful, loving family.
I listen to Mona talk about Montell. I can see that in my head. He might be exactly what she deserves. That man is a saint. I hope she gives him a shot to prove it. Not going to say that out loud though. Because chances are she will do the opposite of what I tell her. Yeah, siblings.
I feel like I need to know one thing though before I talk to Noah. "Ama? Can I ask you something?" She looks at me and knows I'm serious. She nods and exchanges a look with Mona. I sit up and ask: "What about Noah?" She blushes and plays with the hem of her shirt, something she has always done when she's nervous.
Mona puts a hand on Ama's leg and says: "Just be honest Ama. To us, but especially to yourself." Ama looks at us both and I wonder why it looks like she's about to cry. Oh please Buddha, don't let her cry. I can't handle that at all. I look at Mona and she has already noticed of course. She sits down next to Ama and wraps her arm around her.
I feel so bad. I fucked things up for Ama too. I've hurt her, my sister and my best friend. I've hurt myself and I don't know how to fix it.
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That was X's POV.
A little bit on the short side, but enough. At least I think it is.
