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20 question

(ecche)
We went to my room, sat on the bed with our beer. 
“Let’s open the camera. Bcoz it’s my first time and I know I won’t remember anything in the morning.”
“Ok.” He answered smilingly.
“So who’ll ask first?” He said.
“You”
“Ladies first.”
“Mere dimag blank hai abhi. You start!”
“Tere dimaag pe kuch tha kab?’ he smirked. And I rolled my eyes.
“Ok. Ok. Do you love dogs?” and he took his first shot.
“Honestly I love puppies. But then mujhe bohot darr lagta hai.”
“Accha. Now it’s your turn.” Again he smirked and I knew why  he did. I took one shot and just gulp it down.
“ your love for dog?”
“3000”
D:“What makes you insecure?”
E:“Loosing people whom I love honestly .”
E: “what kind of childhood you had?”
D: “ Now I found it interesting. That time nothing was so good as they are now. I used to roam around , listen music, tried to make something. Basically I used to do everything except study. And that’s the worst part for everyone.” He smiled.
D: “ for you what is the most  important thing?
E: “ my people’s.... People whom I love their happiness. I’ll do every possible thing to make them happy.”
E: “let’s ask something from your fan! You say you love them. So how much you love them and what do you think about them?”
D: “ I say I love them and I honestly mean that. They’re those people whom I’ve wanted in my whole life. They love me, my music. They love me without even knowing the real me. I really love them. And most importantly I can connect with them.”
D: “ now it’s my turn. How many fp you still have”  again Darshan raval and his devilish grin.
E: “ abb time nahi milta hai yaar.”
D: “ you’re not allowed to lie here.”
E: “4” 
D: “ I love youuuuu”  he said and hugged me. .
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The game was going on. When we slept we even don’t know. In the morning, Sunlight came and disturbed my sleep. when I woke up, I found Darshan beside me. My head was in his chest. I look at him and he was sleeping so peacefully. I can stare at him like this  for forever.  I sat and I was having a bad headache. Hangover. I muttered. I went to the washroom, fresh myself. And made lemonade for us. And then I woke him up. We ate our breakfast together. And he left my house. I won’t be able to see him for next 1 week. Whatever, prisha is coming and at least I won’t be alone. So I was happy. But my heart was aching. It was aching for some unknown reason. As if something wrong was about to happen. I wonder everything was so fine. Then what can be wrong? Again I was feeling that before every storm nature became quite.
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I went to my room and took my phone. Kal raat k video dekhna hai. Mujhe thoda thoda Yaad hai . He asked me about my fan page. But what about next questions!
(I opened the video)
D: “what’s your favourite food except Ice cream?”
E: “ Bengali food. Aloor Dom” .  I was  already enough drunk to blabber nonsense.
E: “ what’s your favourite fictional character from childhood?”
D: “ Flash!”
D: “ your?”
E: “Do-rae-monnnnnn. Jindegi sawar du ek nayi Bahar du duniya hi badal du main to....”
D: “ pyaara SA chamatkar hu.. main kisika Sapna hu Jo ajj ban Chuka hu saach abb ye Mera Sapna hai ki sabke sapne sach main karuuuuu”
E: “whatever you’ve sung is appropriate for me darsh!”
D: “hahahhahahahahaha”

D: “ Which quality you want in your life partner?”
E: “ He needs to be like you. Cute, handsome, innocent, naughtily nice, humble. Just like you.”
E: Which fictional character scares you the most and why?
D : “ the Darshan raval of fan fiction.  He is so confused! Kuch bhi nahi kar Sakta hai wo. Pasand karta hai kisi ek ko propose karta hai kisi aur ko. Agar main real life main aise niklu na tab my life will be a great mess istg.”
E: “hehehehe”
(I am laughing like a maniac. Like we were singing the title track of DORAEMON! But I’ve said so many things what I shouldn’t. I hope ki usko ye sab yaad Na rahe. Please God. Usko Kuch Yaad nahi rehna chahiye.)
Last question of mine I declared.
E: “ do you love someone now? And whom?”
D: “ The person I love.. you know her very well. You know her since childhood.”
E: “kon?”
*Present(My heart started beating so fast.)
D: I love YOUR NND! I LOVE PRISHA! I REALLY REALLT DO!

PRESENT:
My phone fell from my hand! My hands were shaking! What he had said? Was that true? My best friend love my best friend? Where my happiness lies in him,his happiness lies in her. I feel numb. My heart sank. I knew one day he will find someone whom he love! But that someone is my childhood best friend! Oh fuck man! What should I do now?
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(Ecche)
I was in my bed. I don’t know when I fall asleep ,While crying or finding a way what I should do now I can’t figure that  out! Someone was pressing the calling bell insanely which force me to open my eyes. I went to check who the insolent was. I opened the door and found Prisha there. After opening the door the first thing she did , she hugged me tightly.
“I miss you” she said.
“I miss you too” I murmured. She came inside and sat on the sofa.
“oye tujhe Kya hua hai? Iss time pe so rahi thi? And why your eyes are red and puffed? Kisine Kuch kaha to nahi?”
“Shhhhhhh... Chup chup. Kuch nahi hua hai. Eyes pe halka SA infection hua hai. And mere raat k shift hai. Isiliye abhi so gayi thi.” Maybe I’ve became a good actor because what I said she believed without any questions. Ecche got some talent at least. It’s feeling like my destiny is mocking me. She is laughing at me.
After this we went to our room. Prisha was sleeping.
In evening I got ready for hospital. It’s7 now! My shift will start from 8pm. Darshan will be performing now. Or preparing to get on the stage. He didn’t even text me the way he used to do everytime . I was about to leave when I remember PRI is here. So I should take her leave. I went to her room. She was talking with someone in video call. I went inside and saw it was none other than Darshan. I quickly move aside but he saw me . “oye miss ice cream why you’re moving?” he shouted.
“Actually I’m getting late. Hospital k liye nikal rahi hu. N.. PRI ko bolne aayi thi.”
“Accha.”
“N.. PRI mujhe aane mein subah ho jayegi. Tuu dinner Karke so Jana. Mere pass keys hai.”
“Accha. Thik hai. Take care.”
“Bye.” I didn’t wait there for a split second.
(Week passed like this. Darshan didn’t text me nor he called me. I called him but he didn’t receive the call. Whenever I went to Pri's room either she was on phone call with Darshan or she was chatting with him. Now I’m feeling Prisha also love Darshan. When they talk she turns red. Their laugh, their smile, tantrums everything pierce my heart. I tried to control myself. Darshan don’t love me the way I wanted it hurts me. But what hurts most he is drifting away from me. I can feel that. My biggest insecurity is turning into reality. If both of them love each other than who am I to become an obstacle? I’ll be happy to see them happy. I’m enough strong to see them together. Ecche is the strongest. Cardiologist ecche , who know heart very well, she doesn’t know what is going on with her  heart!
Darshan came in my life like summer. But after summer winter comes.  But here in my life winter has came for forever.  Because neither I can forget Darshan nor I can stop loving him. I will love him till the last shred of my being. I will love him secretly.