Dating Mr. Detective

(26) BETRAYAL

BETRAYAL

Years had past and our friendship become stronger. We went to college and we are both serious on studying. Yeah he confirmed his feelings towards me and told me that he really like me. Hindi na siya confuse but I am. Ngayon ako ang confuse kasi hindi ko alam if gusto ko na rin siya or na o- obliga lang ako na gustuhin siya dahil gusto niya ako. Yes I feel like, I like him too lalo pa at nanliligaw siya. He's super caring but it was not awkward and our friendship become really strong.

Sana lang talaga hindi na rin ako umamin. Everything become messy when I confess. Tch.

"Heidi! Please help me out this time!"

Heto na naman kami sa eksena na nagmamakaawa siyang pagtakpan ko ang kalokohan niya.

"At saan naman tayo pupunta ngayon?" Whenever he wanna go party and do his stuff, sinasabi niya na we will go out together which really never happens. Hindi ako iyong tao na bigla bigla nalang lalabas ng walang dahilan.

"So you are saying yes?"

Tinignan ko siya ng masama, "Kahit naman hindi ako pumayag idadahilan mo parin ako!"

Our friendship did not change at all but he changed. Naging madalas ang paglabas niya with his friends that I never got the chance to meet and naging matigas ang ulo niya that he always use me as an excuse. Minsan nga parang hindi ko na rin siya kilala.

"Thank you so much Heidi, this is why I love you so much!" Niyakap niya ako pero agad din kaming naglayo, nasa school kasi kami at marami paring tao na napapadaan sa pwesto namin.

That night was really messed up, I got a call from Samuel that he got caught for some reason and he said not to tell anyone. Ayaw ko ng mga nangyayare kaya I called his dad and supposedly sabay na puntahan siya but mom didn't let me go out.

"Samuel alam mo pa ba iyang ginagawa mo? You go out with people who take party drugs! Ngayon hindi mo ako kakausapin dahil sinabi ko sa dad mo? What did you expect me to do? Kunsintihin iyang mga ginagawa mo?"

Tama naman ako! I know tama ako.

Hinarap niya ako. "That's not the point Heidi, I trusted you and what I want from you is to trust me too. I called you because I trust you the most and I am just upset because I feel like you don't trust me."

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa mga sinasabi niya. "Samuel I trusted you, I let you use me as an excuse kahit na ayaw mong sabihin kung sino ba ang mga kasama mo tuwing lumalabas ka or saan ka pumupunta kasi I trusted you. Ano pa bang trust ang hinahanap mo?"

I just don't really get him. We never fought about this kind of thing and I never image all of this.

"Ano bang nangyayari sayo?" Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko from asking that. Nagaaway naman na din kami kaya ibabagsak ko na lahat.

"Hindi ka naman ganito." I added.

"Because I've change! And maybe I am not the Samuel that you know before. I just don't wanna sit with you studying and doing nothing in life. Heidi I want to explore, go to party and be happy like other people do. I can't take it anymore being with you all the time. I feel like choking!"

Now I get it, I really do. But to be clear, I never asked him, not for a single time to come with me doing my stuff which chokes him. Kung naaawa man siya na wala akong kasama he should have told me because I am not lonely that I am alone. I'm disappointed na ganito pala ang nararamdaman niya, tapos ano ngayon? Ako ang may kasalanan Unbelievable!

"Gusto mo pa ba ako?" Kailangan ko lang malaman para alam ko kung akong gagawin. Naghintay ako sa sagot niya but he didn't answer.