Don't You Dare Tell Anyone Mr. Stevens

Love At First Sight (A Patty Story)

Tess had already been gone for a while now. We didn't know where she was or when she was coming home. All we knew was that where ever she was she didn't want to be there. And for that I pitied her. I would wonder all the time what it was like being here. But then i'd look into her eyes and take it back because she was too strong and didn't need my pity. She had enough from Ethan. Ethan he was such a softy. A loser, a little cry baby. A soft, timid, sweet, handsome, nice- I shake the thought from my head. Dear God what is happening to me.
"DO you think she's alright?" Ethan asks and I look at him.
"What?" I ask and he raises and eyebrow. I shake my head "Oh right Tess, we were talking about Tess" I say.
"Are you alright? You seem a bit distant" he says.
"Like you don't look distant half the time when you're around me?" I snap. I quickly turn away. I hadn't anticipated it coming out as hastily as it did. The walk from school was an awkward one filled with questions that had no answers and countless possibilities of where Tess could have possibly gone. I see from the corner of my eye he's looking at me. I just don't get it. I don't understand. This kind of stuff is so easy for me I mean hello I'm practically a walking dude magnet. He's just odd very odd. An odd person I have found my twisted mind wrapped around. I couldn't help my mind spinning every time I looked at him. Cut it out Patty before I smack you like a b-"I just hope she comes home soon is all. And in one piece" he says cutting off my concentration.
"Ya me too" I say. God this is ridiculous. Bad enough I have to try and suppress the fact that I may or may not despite knowing him my whole life have a thing for him but he's oblivious and doesn't know it. Or maybe he does and I just don't get it. Maybe he's as frustrated with me as I am with him. I look at him. No, he's hung over on where Tess might be. He's worried about her well-being. I am too I stay up at night wondering and the thoughts of her where a bouts make me sick.
I breathe in forgetting that I have too. I do not like Ethan I do not like Ethan I do not like Ethan. I sigh. That's better.
"So," he says and looks up. "I was just wondering what you were going to do when you get home" he says and I bite the inside of my cheek.
"I don't know. Same thing I do everyday entertain some kind of manly company with my flirtatious humor!" I say and he nods. No emotion what's so ever. He just gets me mad sometimes I want to rip is head open and scream "Hello anyone in here?! I'm totally into you and you just aren't getting !"
"Or perhaps I might call over Toby. I haven't made out with anyone in a while and he's pretty goo" I say and raise an eyebrow at him. He steps on a leaf and keeps walking. I bite my lip. Maybe I got a little too carried away with that one.
'Why what are you doing?" I ask.
He shrugs "Nothing I just thought you might want to come over" he says. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. "And hang out. We haven't done normal friend stuff in a while" he says. Damn. He just totally friend zoned me. Adorable son of a b-"But you seem busy anyway so..." he said and trailed off his words lingering in the air.
"Well i'm not too busy. I wouldn't mind" I say and he looks at me.
"Alright then" he says and I nod. He looks to the ground and steps on the leaves. I don't think he notices that I notice he counts every move I make and every step I take. Every day we have walked together home from school my whole life he has always done the same thing. Look to the ground and count the steps I take. Then he'll look at me when I speak and watch the moves I make. I have a very pretty colored and precise eye. I catch onto a lot of things. He was weird he wasn't like other guys. He didn't throw himself at me. Sure he was my best friend when we were younger but that was a long time. Now I'm 17 and have mood swings and hormonal problems. Maybe if I throw myself at him. I unzip my jacket until the zipper is below my bust.
"It's really warm out today" i say and he nods.
"Ya I think its like 63 today" he says and I suck on my cheek. God he's clueless. Maybe he's gay. I look at him. I love my gay friends but he is definitely not one of them. I sigh. I reach for the buttons on my uniform unbuttoning the top four and yank off my scarf.
"Here hold this I'm getting way too hot" I say and he holds my scarf. I lick my lips dry. Any day now.
"Patty" he says.
"Yes!" I say far too quickly and lean back. "What is it dweeb" I say and he smiles. Aww he's so cute when he smiles. I want to knock myself up. Shut up Patty! Better yet I'll yell at the little voice in the back of my mind to shut the hell up.
"Listen I've been meaning to talk to you about something" he says and the wind blows. I'm suddenly cold.
"Really?" I say. Dear God I bet he's going to talk about Star Wars.
"Yes but you can't make fun of me" he says with a smile and I raise an eyebrow at him.
"Oh God Ethan please!" I say "I don't want to hear about your stupid Star Wars or Mind craft, Call of Duty or whatever the hell it is that you like to do on your free time! I don't tolerate stupid video games Mario and-" i say and the words never escape my mouth. My back slams against cobblestone wall at the corner of the park near my house. My book bag hits the ground with a thump and his hand is on my waist and the other on the wall next to my face. He presses his lips against mine and the world melts away. That was a really nice way of telling me to shut up. Now I'm kind of happy I didn't button up the rest of my shirt. He deepens the kiss by leaning closer and i feel like I'm living a dream. I bring my hand up to gently touch the side of his face but he pulls away.
"Now that I have done that" he says and smiles "I was going to tell you that I like you already. And that you can stop sending the message because I already got it. I've liked you since the 4th grade you dweeb you just didn't get it. I was going to say that I have notice you noticing me count every step you take and watching every move you make since we were five" he says. I don't know why but I just can't keep my eyes off of him. Maybe it is or maybe it isn't but I can;t help but feel like its been Love at first sight. I bring my hand to the side of his face and kiss him again. I can't wait to tell Tess.