Words of the heart

108 - mystery for the rest of time.

why did you ever stick around back then, 

it truly remains a mystery i have spent all my days trying to decode. 

it was in the name of love i suppose but at that time it was not reciprocated so was it love after all? you don't have many emotions left after all that's been thrown from this world and the horrid creatures within so i don't understand how the monster i am could've brought it out. 

i fail to understand if it was some sort of a pity project case or potential stricken. 

and when along the way did you choose the work was done? did you notice something different in me as a human and why do you care if i were to die , 

i'm just another human and not even a good one at that.

 i am not someone who likes to make good decisions.

 i am not someone who brings much joy to others. 

some people were meant to make lives and others destroy 

and sadly i fall upon the side of destruction. 

there is truly so much i want to say to you before the storm hits but 

my mouth will not open to let the words pour out.

perhaps it is because i know it would be pointless,

or maybe it's my pride.

i need you more than ever but that is simply

 a pathetic statement to make.

i am on my own this time around,

and this story will likely have a harsh and ugly ending very soon.

but the earth will still turn,

lives will still progress like normal 

and you'll likely never even know.

and that is okay.

this was predestined.