ANGEL ☾ winwin one shots.

0 mile. [taewin]

haechan was the last member that I saw still awake when he was having some cereal as late night snack, before he made his way to his room twenty minutes ago — and now I'm the only one who's still not asleep. doyoung was the earliest, he had hit the sack after dinner, and then the rest followed him one-by-one.

it was understandable though. it had been a hectic week. we just made another comeback a few weeks ago for our repackage album. I'd be lying if I say it didn't wear me out, but I also felt great. keeping myself busy made me feel alive, makes me feel like myself.

but set those aside, I guess I feel pretty lonely now that the other members are off to bed and I'm alone in my room. the company had agreed to give me a room to myself so I could rest well, since I have to promote with superm too — but at times like this I wish they hadn't.

it's not like I can chat with my fans at these hours. and even if I do, it won't make me feel any less lonely. don't get me wrong, I love them more than they think I do (although they can get a little annoying sometimes), but they're still strangers to me. I want to talk to someone I know, and someone who knows me, not as an idol but as a friend.

I plopped myself onto my bed, with just a t-shirt and shorts on, and took my phone. I opened my messages, not expecting any of my friends to be online at this ungodly hour, yet one was.

sicheng.

well, he's not exactly a 'friend' and it makes me feel even better. if there's someone who knows me better than I myself do, it gotta be him. nowadays, with me being busy with 127 and superm activities and him with his wayv promotions, I found myself missing him. lots. despite all the works, despite of how tired I am; I'll still think of him every time I pause.

I stared at his profile picture like an idiot. I don't know what I should do. text him? call him? what should I even say? it'd be kinda dumb to mention the time or the weather. our dorms aren't that far yet I'm behaving like he lives in a different country. gosh. but I guess that's the company's fault for not letting us interact publicly.

" hi ." to my surprise, he texted me first, and my phone almost drops on my face.

face flushed, I typed a response as quick as I could and hit send. waiting for him to reply makes my heart beats faster than it ever did. I guess this is what long-distance-relationship does to you. you began to miss your significant other like crazy that you don't know how to act, as if you're strangers, not boyfriends. but then again, even if you're a really slow walker, it only takes about ten minutes to get to his dorm from mine.

" hi. weren't expecting you to be awake ."

" had too much caffeine. besides, it's our movie night ." he finally replied after what it felt like hours, and another chimes in shortly after. " I miss you ."

I smiled. that's sicheng. he's not good with pleasantries. he'd rather skip all that bullshit and go straight to the point. when I was confessing to him back then, I was stuttering and stumbling over my words and my face was wine red — that's when he rolled his eyes and kissed me.

I wish I could tell him how much I miss him. write two, three paragraphs about it using poetic words, although he'll surely be knocked out halfway through. I can, and I wrote enough songs to create poems for him, but telling it through texts don't feel right.

" miss you even more. can I call you ?" I answered at last.

a pause. he kept typing but the text never comes. I guess he was debating with himself, typing and deleting, until one text finally slides in.

" let me just go to my room first. it's pretty loud here, they're watching shrek ."

the image of ten reciting every and each line of the movie perfectly without missing any word just to annoy kun pops into my mind, and a grin tugs on the corner of my mouth. guess sicheng wasn't the only one who I've been missing. although I gotta admit, he's the one I especially miss.