Revenant j. hale

Chapter 42

Jasper stood with his back facing me.

"It's your fault," he whispered. 

I called his name, unsure of what was going on. He turned, blood red eyes staring furiously at me. Glancing from his eyes down to his arms, he held a bloodied and bruised Clara.

"It's your fault. All along I've thought I was the monster, and it's really been you." His words hit me like a million knives, ripping at my insides and making me stop a few feet in front of him. 

"No. Neither of us are monsters. What are you saying, Jas?" 

"You see how people are going to die and you so selfishly sit and cry about it. You let them die. It's all your fault." He walked forward, dropping Clara's lifeless body to the floor. Meeting me, he leaned down to my height. 

"You've killed them. I could never be with a monster like you." Cold hands were placed on my shoulders and I turned to see my dead family displayed in the snow. 

"Carlisle, we can't put her there. You know it will make it worse." 

Jasper accent filtered through the air, fluttering into my ears like an amazing song. It woke me up quickly, making me squint and blink at the harsh lights above me. Immediately I could feel the needle pressing into my skin and the obnoxious beeping of a heart monitor. 

"Jasper?" My throat was achy and in less than a second he was in front of me, cradling my face gently in his hands. "I'm sorry."

"No darlin', don't apologize. Everything's okay." He kissed my forehead softly and sat down beside me. 

Carlisle walked next to my bed holding his clipboard. "I don't know how much of earlier you remember, but we had to bring you here to the hospital for safety purposes as well as blood testing." 

He paused and I nodded for him to continue. 

"I haven't been able to get anything started just yet. Because of your previous - " another pause. "Due to the records we have in the system, we can't do it here."

I was confused. I didn't understand what he meant. He was a doctor, this was a hospital and I'm a patient, it shouldn't be a problem. He was glancing to the floor and back to me and it clicked. 

"No, no, no! I can't. I'm not-"

"Hey," Jasper grabbed me gently, "it's okay. It's just mandatory." Hot tears flooded down my face as I looked back and forth between them. 

"I wanna see Ally. Get me Alice. She wouldn't - " Once again I was interrupted. 

"Alice has agreed to stay away for the time being." 

It happened so fast. Wanting desperately to leave, I attempted to tear the IV out and try to stand up, yelling at Jasper for agreeing to such a thing. He tried to calm me down, emitting all the warm feelings my direction for me to only grow angrier. 

It became clear I wasn't going to stop so Carlisle did what he had to do. He put me under again. 

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Waking up was always hard.

But waking up alone was worse. In the freezing cold room with only one small window on the door it was dark. Nothing but the tiny bed and smallest stream of light fading in from the hallway. 

My eyes felt heavy from the medicine still lingering in my body. It made me drowsy and incoherent, not very sure of my surroundings. I attempted to move my legs from the bed to the ground, in hopes of stretching or just moving in general. But my legs were not cooperative and a thick, tight strap clasped them down to the crappy mattress beneath me. 

I could already feel the worry spreading all throughout my body and chilling me to the bone. 

The door swung open slightly, revealing a small lady in a nurses outfit and a much bigger man behind her. 

"Hello Ms. Jones. Glad to see you're awake." A sickly sweet smile was displayed across the woman's face as she pushed the cart in after her. Multiple needles and weird liquids sat across the top. 

"Please, I don't need any of that." 

"Oh, but sweetie do you really want to argue?" She giggled at my statement, the big man behind her stepping out with the familiar stick already placed in his hands. The humming from the electricity placed inside of it made me shiver, and scratch at my skin. 

"Thought so." And with that she injected the needle into my vein, pouring yet another sedative into my body to lull me back to sleep. 

Y'all I have been having so much anxiety and a few mini panic attacks. I don't even know what to do with it at this point honestly. But I hope all of you are doing okay. I'll probably update again either tonight or tomorrow <3