Grant's Revenge

Chapter 14

Jen

How to cope up with your sudden death, Den?

I stared at the ceiling of my room. How could I move on? How could I believe there's still life without you? Can't the world stops for a minute? Can't I have another chance with you? Just another day?

Another day of happiness? Another day so I could hug and kiss you? Another day so I could just lay on the bed and talk about my dreams as you play guitar, or a piano, a flute, or a harp?

I just want to hug you so bad. I want to tell you how much I love you. I want to tell you that I want to have kids too. Two or three isn't a bad number. Tapos we'll live together, away from everything that's controlling us.

Jayden, why? Akala ko ba we'll live together? Why did you leave me too?

Ang dami mong plano para satin di ba? So why?

"Jen?"

I heard knocks on my door. It's probably my Mom again. Whenever there are problems in this house, she always knocks on my door to justify my Dad's actions.

But No, it's too much. They took my life. I'll better be rotting here inside my room, to die too.

"Don't get in. I'll kill myself if you do, Mom." Lumapit ako sa pinto para siguraduhin na nakalagay lahat ng lock doon. Tatlong layer na ng lock yung nilagay ko.

I heard three knocks again. That's her way of saying I love you to me ever since I was a kid at napaparusahan ako ni Daddy for not following his rules at ikinukulong lang ako sa loob ng kwarto ko.

Nanghihinang napaupo na lang ako at sumandal sa pinto. I'm so tired of everything. This charade is killing me softly.

Tears started to roll on my cheeks again. Ang sakit! Gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula.

Why everyone is so good in leaving me behind? All I want lang naman is to be happy too. I want to stay but they keep on pushing me away. I don't need protection, I'm not a baby.

Jayden, why? Why did you do it? Akala ko ba we'll run away from this castle? Why did you talk alone to the ruthless king?

"I-I love him, Mom. Why?"

Narinig ko yung pagbuntong-hininga ni Mommy. Pagkatapos ay kumatok ulit ito ng isa.

Her way of saying Sorry.

"I'm sick of everyone saying Sorry. Can't they stop doing things that hurt me so they won't have to apologize everytime?"

"Jen.."

Dinig ko yung kalansing ng mga susi na nanggagaling sa labas. She's trying to open my door.

"N-No, Mom. Please don't break this distance. Your presence is suffocating me. I want to breathe. I'm slowly dying. It's too.. painful."

Again, with one knock on my door. Sorry.

"I love him, Mom. He is the only person who treats me fairly. The one who listens to me. The only person who isn't afraid to share his dreams and plans to me, who asks me what I want to be, kung anong plano ko. Kung anong gusto, kung saan ako masaya. He is the only person who always makes surprises for me. He is the only person who appreciates my smiles. He is the only person who is looking forward to every day because he is considering me his every day gift." Tuluyan na akong napaiyak. I had to cover my face with my palms to control my sobs.

"B-but.. He's gone. Forever."

"Your Dad has nothing to do with his death, Jen."

"Who's fault then!? Where is his body!? I want to hug him so bad. Can't you just bury me with him so we can be together?"