Outerbanks Imagine

8 letters - Rudy Pankow

"Okay, so how do you want to do this?" Daniel Seavey asked you. He is one of your close friends and he's going to help you writing a song about how you feel towards your boyfriend Rudy Pankow. The last few weeks have been pretty rough. He told you that he loved you and you just walked away. You walked away and never said it back. You don't know why. You love him, but it's just that nobody has ever said it to you before and it scared the crap out of you. And ever since then it has been weird between the two of you.

"I wrote a letter to him, maybe we can change that to a song?" You answer his question.

"What did you write?"

"You know me the best. You know my worst, see me hurt, but you don't judge. That, right there, is the scariest feeling. Opening and closing up again. I've been hurt so I don't trust. Now here we are, staring at the ceiling. I've said those words before but it was a lie. And you deserve to hear them a thousand times

If all it is is eight letters, why is it so hard to say? If all it is is eight letters, why am I in my own way?

Why do I pull you close and then ask you for space. If all it is is eight letters, why is it so hard to say?

Isn't it amazing how almost every line on our hands align when your hand's in mine. It's like I'm whole again, isn't that a sign. I should speak my mind. If all it is is eight letters, why is it so hard to say?" you read out loud.

"That is really good. It's sad, but good. I think I have an idea. Give me a minute and you'll have your song."

"Thank you so much!" Daniel started to work on the song. You gave him the space and just spend some time texting Chase and Madelyn.

MADELYNN

Madelyn

So, how is it going?

You

Pretty okay I think? Daniel is working on the song so I'm giving him so space. How is he?

Madelyn

Cranky as a mf. He's messing up his lines, which is making him even more mad at himself which is making us all annoyed.

You

I'm sorry.

Madelyn

It's not your fault

You

But it is! It's my fault. If I just said it back then we wouldn't be here.

Madelyn

Don't be yourself up over it. It's going to be okay. He's just having a hard day. We all have that sometimes.

"Y/N, what do you think of this. I've made the lyrics out of your letter. So tell me what you think of it. Be honest okay." Daniel plays the song. Its the exact same words from the letter and it sounds amazing. It doesn't sound as a very sad song, but it's also not very up tempo. It's perfect.

"This is perfect. Daniel, thank you so much!"

"Of course! Do you want me to come with you for the music?"

"If you have time, yes please."

"You want to do it right now?" You nodded your head. You wanted to tell him this as quick as you can.

"Good, let's go then!"

You and Daniel made your way to set. Daniel had a instrumental version on his phone and texted the lyrics to you. It's not that hard to learn them. You were nervous when you pulled up to the set. So many of his cast mates would hear it, but you just couldn't wait till he got home.

"Y/N! You're here!" Madison yells at you as soon as you get out of the car and hugs you.

"Hi! Yeah, I need to talk to Rudy. Do you know where he is?"

"Yeah, he's right by the trailers. Is everything okay?"

"Yes. I just need to talk to him."

"Okay." Daniel gets out of the car too. You quickly introduce him to Madison and then drag him along with you to the trailers. Rudy, Madelyn, Chase, JD and Drew are sitting outside in between the trailers. They're laughing at something that Drew said. You hoped that Rudy would be alone, but since he's not you'll just have to go along with it.

"Y/N!" Madelyn yells in excitement. She gets up and hugs you.

"Hi," you say. You quickly turn your attention to Rudy.

"Hey, I've something to tell you."

"Okay..." it's sounds a bit like a question. You nodded to Daniel and he put on the music. You quietly began to sang along. With the second your confidence grew with the second and you voice became louder. At first you were aware of all the people around you, but they disappeared and when you looked at Rudy, it was just the two of you. You look at him while you sing the words to the song and when it's over, he's standing right in front of you.

"I'm sorry. I should've said it right away, I was just scared. Because no one has ever said it to me. But I love you. I love you so much."

Rudy smiles at you. "This was amazing, Y/N. I love you." Rudy kisses you and you smile against his lips.