How God Called It [Being Edited And ON HOLD]

Regrets Or..

[Inner's POV]

It's Dinny's seventeenth birthday today. I sent her a text just right after midnight. We're going to school anyways so I'll be with her in most parts of the day. However.. I wanted to and still want to wish Tee a happy birthday but I can't. It'll seem like I'm desperate. Urgh.. Let me just forget about what we had. It's so over now. Besides, he'll probably be having a girl to lap dance on him, take shots from his abs with her mouth. Yeah.. Definitely his style.

Enough sulking now, I have a class to get to in two hours' time. I need all my energy and strength to focus. After all the necessary preparations, I'm done. Dinny knocks on the door and I walk out the house. We cannot be late. I sing her a happy birthday song, give her a hundred rands (I'm not good at buying presents so excuse me) but she knows that. She thanks and hugs me then we head to school together.

Along the way, she brings Thanksgiven up, since it's his birthday too, but I nicely ask her to drop it. It's her birthday and I can't be talking about my ex nor pasts. It should be all about her today. She doesn't have a boyfriend, well.. Not that I know of. So boys are off limits. The only topic interesting right now is school and Matric farewell. So we happily engage in that. I already have a partner, he's in my class. My boyfriend refused to go when I asked about his plans, that was last year even.

I begged him to go, but he refused. Said he'd rather keep the money for his career. I understood that. But that doesn't mean I won't go. You only get to go to farewell once. So not even my boyfriend can stop me from going. Well currently speaking, my ex. So, I chose one smart classmate of mine, whom I knew wouldn't remain behind in grade eleven. And here we both are in grade twelve. See.. I made a good choice.

We finally get to school, go to our different classes and the learning begin. It soon is break time. I'm with Happy in the classroom, both of us are sitting at my desk on our chairs.

Happy: "Friend, it's Thanksgiven's birthday today. How you feeling?" Happy asks me.
Me: "I wish I still was there to wish him one. I mean, I still can but who am I fooling babe?" I ask with a sigh.
Happy: "Yeah. I hear you. He's not even at school. I overheard the side, talk about it on our way to school." Happy says.
Me: Sighing. "Friend.. I know. I just don't wanna think about it that much hey. It's still sore to be honest. But it all gets better with time." I say to her.
Happy: She sighs too. "Yeah.. I'm sorry hun. I really am. But you've got yourself a very fine man. To think that you're obsessed with brown eyes, he has them." she says with a grin.
Me: "Girl, Reign is not mine. And who has brown eyes?" I ask her a bit confused.
Happy: "Duh🙄.. Reign has brown eyes. Have you asked him yet about the whole, I sponsor you, you sponsor me relationship?" she asks.
Me: "Oh wow. I haven realized. I've never kept eye contact to even notice the colour of his eyes. But I'll sure look at them tomorrow after church. I'll ask him then. Said he's going to town after church, so he's walking me home." My mood really isn't that hyped up either. It's like Tee not being here just shuts my mood.
Happy: "Uh-oh.. Trouble in paradise" she says looking behind my back.

Immediately at those words, I look up and behind me. I see the side chick and friends entering our classroom. They come to us. They have smirks, fake smiles and smug looks on their faces. And I know it's not about to end well.

Her: "Hello girl. Happiness, we'd like to invite you to tonight's party. Well not you, the other one." She says the last part looking at me.
Happy: "Ahh girl. You know I don't drink anymore." My twin says to her.
Her: "It's a pity. It's boyfie's birthday today. He started celebrating yesterday, we're joining on the fun tonight. He sure knows how to turn up. Well.. Inner dearest.." she's now facing me with a smug look on her face. "We'd invite you too but we know you're the little innocent one who doesn't drink. Besides we wouldn't want a drunk you embarrassing us and Tee and ruin the party now would we?" she asks folding her arms with attitude.
Me: To say I'm unmoved, I'd be lying. But I respond with a smile "Well.. Too bad I don't hey. Besides.. I have an appointment with God tomorrow morning, one I cannot miss for the world" I say putting emphasis on the last three words. "So have fun and enjoy. I be praying for y'all. God knows you need it. Now babe, if you'll excuse me I have an important meeting to attend with the principal as in yesterday. A woman's priorities baby girl.. Ciao." I say with both a smirk and a wink as I excuse myself from the group.

As I head out the door, my vision is clouded with tears threatening to fall. I'm not going to cry in front of them. I won't. Never. But.. Am I filled with regrets or what. I just can't seem to get over Thanksgiven. Well not yet. I make my way to the principal's office, to talk about the farewell preparations and budgets.

[Reign's POV]

I'm so tired this weekend. Tomorrow it's Sunday and I still have to go to town. But at least I'm walking Princess home. She said she wants to ask me something. I wonder what could it be. I know her mom is awfully strict, but at least I'll bring along the laptop to give to her.

I cannot help but remember last Sunday night. She's a beauty with a broken heart. Still an infant spiritually but weren't we all and not that I'm mature but yeah.. That. Her forehead birth mark, minimal eye brows and lashes, dark brown Hazel nut Chinese shaped eyes, African nose, top and bottom black colored full lips, towards the opening they're plump and pink. Beautifully carved small ears, a dimple on her right cheek when she smiles, chubby baby cheeks when she smiles nor blushes.

But her dark brown eyes flicker with hurt. He heart seems bruised. Her beautiful smile up close fades to a sad smile.. A fake one. Her brows furrow at times without her realizing that they do.. An indication that she does that so often that she automatically furrows them. It's like she has a lot of regrets or.. But I know. She's badly hurt. Fortunately for me, I'm seeing her tomorrow. I'll get to study her ver well. Body language does not lie.

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