How God Called It [Being Edited And ON HOLD]

A Night Of Recourse

[Third Person's POV]

It was the 27th of November 2015, the last Friday of the month. Inner loved it as she would spend time in God's presence with other brethren. What made it her favorite was that she'd throw a Holy Spirit party not just alone like always, but with her family in Christ. She cherished the all night prayers as their atmosphere was beyond comprehension.

After school, she headed home with Thanksgiven. They were just okay. He was happy. She was heart broken. But they were okay and that seemed to be all that mattered. Until she saw the girl who was on his d.pic pass by with snarky comments from her and her friends, as they made it very intentional to her that they were pitying her for being with Thanksgiven as he also was "their girlfriend's Bae."

She was hurt but chose to mask it behind her newly found smile at the thought of the girls calling Thanksgiven their girlfriend's poop. He wasn't her Bae, she never called him that. To her it was for girls who still French kiss, romance kiss and all that. She called him 'Love or Tee', for a girl who baby kisses more as its how adults would do in front of their kids. She really valued wifey behavior and was happy with that.

Upon reaching home, (not that her boyfriend accompanied her to their usual spot as it was Friday. Together with the excitement behind not having to report to Inner because both would be out. Him having his own fun and her being uptight and boring with her 'all night prayers') post her after-school routine, took a nap as per mom's instruction since she was going to the prayer.

Waking up around six (18:00) she freshened up as she had to depart her house early, since it took 45 minutes to reach her destination by foot and her parents usually walk her. She couldn't risk her parents getting mugged or hurt on their way back home. So, the sooner she left her house, the better. Although it would mean her waiting for an hour and 45 minutes for the prayer to start, being early was her thing, but not that early. Being considerate for her parents was however an 'at all costs' priority.

She arrived at the Pastors early as usual. Kept herself busy with WhatsApp and helped with the chores here and there or the Pastors kids before everyone arrived. It was already nine o'clock and the prayer started. To set the atmosphere as usual, there was a Playlist of praise and worship songs with lyrics, others were live recordings from the albums.

To mention but a few, there were songs like: From praise to worship.
1. Planetshakers: Tun it up, Dance , Endless praise, This is our time
2. Planetshakers: Covered, it's Your love, made to worship
3. Hillsong United: Light will shine, Running, Children of the Light..
4. Hillsong United: Cornerstone, love on the line, oceans(where feet may fail), all I need is You, With everything, I surrender, beneath the waters, open heaven(river wild)..

As the night fell away, it was then time to pray. Of course to ensure being in one accord, there were items to be prayed for by the whole attendees, and people would individually pour out their hearts to God.
Lamentations 2:18-19
[18]Cry aloud before the Lord, O walls of beautiful Jerusalem! Let your tears flow like a river day and night. Give yourselves no rest; give your eyes no relief.
[19]Rise during the night and cry out. Pour out your hearts like water to the Lord. Lift up your hands to Him in prayer, pleading for your children, for in every street they are faint with hunger.

As it was then time for individuals to say their prayers to God, Inner spared no thought to 'restraint' as she would cry with limits since her eyes would get swollen real quick and the rest was history. But not that night. She was tired, heavy heartened, broken even though she was good at masking it.

Matthew 11:28-30
[28]Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
[29]Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
[30]For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

She zoned out of the room as she knelt down to pray, something she never did (Not that people were watching) but, she ceized the moment like it was her last breath. Imagining all her hearts burdens, humming to the music in the background she positioned herself on her knees, closed her eyes and started praying.

"Heavenly Father I thank You for nights like these. Where we gather in your presence. Your word says where two or more are gathered in Your name, You're there amongst their midst (Matthew 18:20). Lord I ask of You. I don't want it if You're not in it, I just want You. God, I'm tired. I'm tired of all the heartbreaks, the tears. I've shed too much tears, way more than my mom's yet she's married and I'm not. I'm only seventeen and I feel like I've gone through so much heartbreaks for my age." At this point her heart was twice as heavy. "I lay it all down Father, I've kept up with one too many blows to the heart. I just wanted him to realize who he is in You, I just wanted to be loved, to have a spouse one day and stay together like my parents, not the relationship I'm in. God, pleeeease! I don't care about looks, fame, education or money. I want a God fearing guy. One that would treat me the way You do. I can't take this anymore. It's too much for me. It's too much God. Alone I can't. Please rescue me Father." Inner prayed as she was experiencing heat flashes from her compressed sobbs, even when she cried, she was never the type to wail, but rather compress the cry until all she could do was sobb and sniffle. Something she learnt to do very well as not to wake her parents up from her months of crying herself to sleep.

At this point, the only pain she would feel was the one at her back, exactly behind where her heart is positioned. She knew very well that when she was at a point of not return (Where others would faint from pain, have loss of breath or just be plain dramatic) she was bound to pop all her face veins, experience heat flashes, bite her wails and eventually get a pain piercing through her heart to the back. If an emoticon would describe the pain she'd use it. 💘💘💘💘💘But it only resembled the pain she felt, not describe it.

"Even if he's the ugliest, God I don't care. I don't care if my friends will make fun of me regarding his looks. All I want is for him to be God-fearing." Inner prayed weeping and pouring her heart out to God.

Now it was time for tea break. Inner just had her "ugly-cry" as she calls it. And she felt her heart relieved but not from pain. The piercing pain was still there and she loved it because believe it or not, she experienced the same heart piercing pain even when she was overly ecstatic about something. So now, she didn't mind it, as she knew the pain was a resemblance of complete joy. As for her face, she didn't want to wipe away her new natural make up. But because they had to help with the sandwiches, she had to. She didn't even care about her bloated nose and swollen eyes. She just felt like she was a new being at heart.

After the tea break, the prayer would continue, but now the items would be prayed over again together with individual prayer requests before the end discussion. Where people would share what God had said to them, solutions to existing or new problems, all the 'how to's' and 'what to do's' as well as all the 'it's time for's'.

The prayer continued and now it was time for the end discussion. At first it would be intense as people's prayers were answered, other's visions were other's breakthroughs, others questions were other's answers. A person would say this time was full of coincidences, but it's not a coincidence if you speak exactly what someone needed to hear. It's beyond just a coincidence.

The discussion went back and forth, emotions everywhere. For Inner it was exciting having to hear one's breakthrough from a complete stranger's mouth. It increased her awe and wonder towards This God. When all of a sudden:
"God says He hears your prayer. He hears your cries. He acknowledges them. Just wait on Him." Ps Chris told Inner as she was now lost in her own thoughts. She shot her head up quickly feeling the intent voice echoing to her.
'God, really? Did God really say He hears me? Me out of all people?' Inner thought to herself as this was the first time Ps Chris ever talked to her about the encounters in these kinds of meetings. She was excited to be exact. "Thank you Ps." She said as she started sniffling again upon the realization of what it meant for her prayer to be answered.

Little did she know that this night was her night of recourse in her love life. Little did she know what This God can do.

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