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"Margaret what happened?" habol sa akin ni Caleb.
Hindi ko siya pinansin at nagdire-diretso na ako sa kwarto ko.
Bakit? Paulit ulit ko ng tinatanong sa sarili ko kung bakit? Bakit palagi na lang akong nasasaktan? Hindi ba ako pwedeng maging masaya man lang?
Kailan? Kailan tuluyang titigil ang mga luha ko? Kailan gagaling ng tuluyan ang puso ko?!
Sa ilang beses akong nagmahal akala ko I can fix my heart, pero sa halip na maayos ito nadadagdagan lamang ng panibagong sakit.
Kairo. I thought he was the one. I love him so much,but he broke me, he gave me another pain and problems. He got Aela pregnant when he is in relationship with me?! I.. I.. Can't believe him!
He lied to me. He fooled. He hurt me. But I love him. How can I move on to my happy life now without that guy?! How?!
"Margaret.."
Napatingin ako kay Caleb na biglang pumasok sa kwarto ko, may hawak na susi.
"What happened?" he asked me.
Tumingin ako kay Caleb. He warned me so many times but I didn't even listen to him. He wanted to help me escape from the past but I always refused it. Pero kahit anong galit ko sa kaniya. Kahit ilang beses ko siya ipinagtabuyan. He didn't leave me this time.
"Stop crying." lumapit siya sa akin.
Mahigpit ko siyang niyakap. Tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. I'm so sick of this love.
"I'm tired. Really tired.." I said while crying. "Bakit Caleb? Bakit ang sakit sakit? Why do I always end up hurting again? Can't I just be happy?!"
"My coussy deserves to be happy, okay?" he said gently.
"If I really deserve it why am I still not happy? Why am I still hurting?" I said.
"Dahil sa ibang tao ka humahanap ng kasiyahan mo, that is the reason why, brat. Hindi lahat ng kasiyahan ay makukuha mo sa ibang tao" bumitaw siya sa yakap at tinitigan ako. "You should try to make yourself happy even without the help of other people."
"Pero hindi ko kaya, Caleb. Pagod na akong mag-isa. Pagod pagod na akong iwanan. Ang sakit sakit na." I said.
"Matagal ka ng hindi mag-isa, Marga. I'm here now. You have your Tatay and Yaya. Yuna and Miyeon. And your Mom and Dad." hinawakan niya ang magkabilang pisngi ko at marahang pinunasan ang mga luha ko. "You are not alone anymore, so stop thinking that you are, because all this time we are here,but you just can't see us because you are blind in love...You always think that love can solve everything ."
"Maybe you're really right love can't solve everything. Even if I love Kairo he still even dare to hurt me. Even if I love him very much he still can't choose me over his first love." tumingin ako sa kaniya, he's eyes look soft. I can also see the little madness in his eyes. "I'm always a rebound girl because I'm blind seeking for happiness using love.."
He hugged me again, tightly. I cried in his shoulder again.
I'm a rebound girl. Seeking for happiness that can heal or fix my unfixed heart.
Pero sa halip na mabuo ulit ito, paulit ulit lamang akong nasasaktan. Is this what I really deserve? If it is,what is the reason? Bakit wala akong mahanap na tamang dahilan kung bakit lagi na lang akong nasasaktan?
I'm doing everything to make the people around me happy even if I'm in pain inside! Is it not enough for them to stay?
Like what Liza Soberano say, Am I not enough? Kapalit-palit ba ako? Bakit niya ako nagawang lokohin?
BINABASA MO ANG
Unfixed Heart (Heart Series 1)
Teen FictionOne accident caused her heart to be unfixed. And after that accident she keeps losing the people she love the most. And now her heart is full of pains, guilt and regrets. Will LOVE can fix it all? Or it just gonna add more heartaches?
