Conscience Of Love

Chapter 8

Jealous

Days passed really fast and to each passing days.. we're always together. I'm always with him everytime he goes fishing. Maaga akong pumupunta dahil maaga syang umaalis ng bahay nila para mangisda. Hindi din ako tinitigilan ni Ashley at ng mga kaibigan nya. Paulit ulit nilang sinasabi na layuan kodaw si Shan kung ayaw kong masaktan. Wow, is that a death treath?

Madalas ding sa bahay na ako nila Shan nag aalmusal dahil wala akong kasama sa bahay dahil sa nangyaring fiesta. Pumayag si Mommy na umuwi muna lahat ng house maids namin sa kani kanilang lugar. Ako ang nag pumilit sa kanya na bigyan ng one week off ang mga housemaids at pumayag naman sya. Sabi ko'y ayos lang ako dito kahit ang totoo'y ginawa koyun dahil baka maisipan nyang umuwi pero hindi.

Hindi na sana sasama si Yaya Joy dahil Wala daw akong kasama pero pinilit ko syang kailangan nya munang mag pahinga. Pumayag naman syang sumama sa isa sa mga house maids namin na taga dito lang. So I'm here.. all alone. But I'm fine because I can handle myself. I'm no longer a kid, anyway.

Mom isn't always at home and she told me she was so busy with my Dad's business. I don't want to stress my self out but every time I remember her promise... I'm starting to pity myself. But.. that's fine anyway. Maybe she's just preparing for my upcoming birthday. Palagi nya akong sinusuprise kaya hindi na sakin bago ito.

But I can't change the fact that I miss her. Kahit anong pilit ko sa sarili ko na wag, naiisip ko padin ang mga sinabi nya bago kami umuwi. She assured me that we're going to Palawan for a summer vacation. But where is she? She's not... here. Inalis ko ang mga naiisip sa aking utak at pilit na pinasaya ang sarili.

I looked at the calendar then got so excited. My birthday is coming 2 days from now!

Niyakap ko ang kumot ko at sinubukan ng makatulog. Kailangan kong gumising ng maaga bukas dahil nangako akong sasama ako kay Shan para sa pag aaplyan nyang trabaho. To be honest, he didn't asked me to come with him. Sabi nya nga'y medyo malayo daw ang pupuntahan at maglalakad lang daw sya dahil nagtitipid sya sa pamasahe. I asked him to let me come with him. I even offered him to go with me because I have a car but he refused.

Pinayagan nya akong sumama basta daw ay hindi ako magdadala ng pera. I accepted his offer because I really want to go with him. Hindi nya sinasabi sakin kung ano ang kukunin nyang trabaho. He said that, that was a surprise. Matagal na daw kasi syang kinukuha doon pero dahil busy sya'y hindi daw sya pumapayag. Ngayon lang. No matter how he tried to hide his emotion I saw how happy he is.

Sabi nya saki'y makakapag aral na daw sya next year at sigurado na daw sya don. I'm happy for him too. I saw how determined he is to go to school. How determined he is to be... successful. And I know he will.

I went down on our grand staircase to get some fresh milks. Sira kasi ang ref sa kwarto ko at masyado akong nahihiya na magtanong sa driver namin tungkol doon. Hindi din kasi si kuya Rodel ang nandito at sa lahat ng driver ay sa kanya lang ako malapit. Umakyat ako ng kwarto pagkatapos kong maubos ang gatas. I heard my phone vibrated.

I checked it then saw my Mom's message. I opened it.

I'm in El Nido with Harbert, hija. We're checking out some of our property here. Ok kalang ba dyan?

I told her I'm doing fine. I badly want to ask her when will she be home. Pinigilan ko ang sarili ko dahil alam kong masyado syang busy sa ginagawa. I know she'll be home on my birthday too, so I don't need to worry. I'm always with Shan anyway so I spent my time.... so well.

Nakatulog na ako sa kakaisip. Nagising lang dahil sa alarm ko. As I've said.. I'm always with him everytime he goes fishing so I need to wake up early. Well, maaga na ang 9:00 AM sa akin ngayon. Tuwing mangingisda naman sya'y 6:00o'clock palang, nasa bahay na nila ako. Ngayon ay hindi ako nag alarm ng maaga dahil hindi daw sya mangingisda ngayong araw.