Failure is only noticed when it affects other people. Instead of pointing out my failures, why can't people just let me fade into obscurity? Leave me alone, leave me to my own devices, leave me with a knife, a gun or anti freeze, arsenic, SOMETHING! Don't point out my failures. Even the ones that affect other people. Leave me be. Leave me alone with my thoughts, alone to conjure up methods to try. Hell I'm such a failure I can't even kill myself correctly. I've tried 10 times at least. I've overdosed on everything I have access to. I mean major overdose. I've tried killing myself with fucking razor blades and I'm still here. I don't want to be alive anymore why can't anyone get that?
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The things I think of when I'm alone
PoesiaUnbearable pain that is expressed and acknowledged becomes bearable. But people who have suffered from BPD received no such responses in their childhood. Therefore, they are stuck in the past, trying to elicit what they needed as a child-validation...
