A Game Called "Love"

Chapter 42

Chapter 42: First love ♤

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Trisha's POV

"Mom." Unti-unting tumulo ang mga luha kong naglalaman ng sobrang bigat na damdamin na nararamdaman ko.. na uti-unti ding gumagaan sa tuwing pinagmamasdan ko ang mukha ni mommy as I stand beside her hospital bed.

Hospital bed. Yes, she's.... here.

Alive.

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"Dad can I ask you a favor?" I looked at my dad as we were descending from that horrible place where I experienced the second most terrifying moment of my life.

"Anything." He carefully held my hands as he consoled me.

I'm sure he's quite angry at himself for what just happened. He's even willing to take me far away from this place. Anywhere but here daw. He's really so protective, since I'm the only one he has left.

"I want to go see mom" He stopped for a second before looking at me.

I've never been to my mom's grave before. I didn't knew why he strictly refused to talk about mom with anyone including me before... But now I know why.

Mas masakit pa siguro sa dinadala ko yung nararamdaman nya sa mga panahong kinakailangan pa niyang itago ang lahat ng litrato ni mommy, everything about mom, he hid it from me to keep me from being hurt.

He just wants me to live a normal life just like everyone else, without feeling guilty every time I do something and restricting myself from having fun.. Because I'll know for sure that I don't deserve it.

My memory loss gave him a chance to hide the truth from me, even if it means him being unable to mention my mom, his beloved wife, in front of me.

Every portrait, every possession, every thing that would remind me of mom's incident, he hid it away from me, just like every spindle in sleeping beauty's castle.

And now, just when I was about to be guilty for the rest of my life, God gave me hope.

Seeing mom breathing but still sleeping deeply in a coma was enough miracle for me.

She survived the crash!!

But then... She has been in a coma for 5 years now.

And to think that this is my first time visiting her after the horrible thing that I've done to her.

"Your mom is strong Trisha, after saving you, she's now still fighting to be with us."

"Mom, I'm so sorry. This is all my fault!" My knees trembling as I hold on to her hands tight.

"It's not your fault Trisha. It's just the way things are." Dad patted my back and kissed me on the forehead which made me cry even more.

"I'm so sorry dad"

"It's okay. It's all done now."

My dad is so strong. I can't imagine how hard it must've been for him. Me not remembering what I did, him choosing not to make me remember what I did. And him just keeping everything inside, every pain, every anger, every sorrow.

"I'm sorry Dad" ulit ko while smiling at him with my teary eyes and sqeezing mom's hands.

"I love you both."

And for the first time in my life, I felt something different in my heart. Something fulfilling and different from the love that I've ever felt towards Kyle, or even my friends.

This love, feels selfless and stranger.

The kind that makes you feel safe.... and free.

My first love. Storge.