unpredictable : mgc

Chapter 41.

*Brooke POV*

It's been a week since I went on that date with Michael, and I hated myself for making him worried. But in all fairness, I have noticed that I've lost weight, it's just...I don't really eat anymore because when I do, I usually vomit it all up and I just honestly don't like the feeling when I eat, it almost causes me pain. I can't sleep properly anymore, I just toss and turn in the night. My limbs have been feeling weak and when I move them, they go numb. But a painfull numb. These migraines I get are killing me, everytime I get one I just want a hole in the ground to appear beneath me and suck me in.

Yes, I still get all of these pains. And no, I haven't seen a doctor or anything. Because I know this will all go away. I just hope it's soon. And I just hope they will go away 100%. But my whole life I've gone by the saying 'Expect the unexpected.' So honestly, if this does end up being some sort of permanent thing. I won't freak out. Although, I never will find out what it is, because I won't go and see a doctor. Ever.

I have some sort of phobia against hospitals and doctors. It just freaks me out to be fair. The thought that, millions of people die within hospital walls and the air filled with breath from people who have life threatening diseases. No.

And I've realised, the walls of hospitals hear more prayers than any church. And I get freaked out by the thought that one of those prayers would be for me. But they won't be, millions of people suffer worse pain than me. I'm acting self centered. I should just ignore it all and keep on living my life to the fullest.

I got cut off by my thoughts when my phone started ringing. Charlene.

"Hey Charlene." I said once I picked it up.

"Hello Brookie, I was wonder- Luke stop!" She giggled. I rolled my eyes. "Anyways, I was wondering if you wanna hang out, I'm bored. We could go to Shay's."

"Oh, I'm boring you now?" I heard Luke say in the background. He must've done something to Charlene because she started giggling uncontrollably.

"Sure, we can go to Shay's." I said, ignoring the giggles.

"Okay! Brooke, you okay? You don't sound too good." She said. I heard the fun and jokes leave the room.

"What? Yeah, I'm fine." I said, convincing her.

I heard her sigh. "C'mon, Brooke. You sound sick or something. You're my sister, you can tell me anything. Please? I just want to be there for you."

I frowned at her last comment. Everyone kept saying that, but how could they tell I wasn't doing great? I was doing fine. Really. No, not really.

"I'll see you later." I said sighing before hanging up.

I got up and got ready, it was already 1 in the afternoon, but I put off getting ready all day because my legs hurt. Oh well. I looked over at my calendar, I was supposed to get my period 15 days ago. But I didn't, and I didn't feel as if I were going to anytime soon.

I sighed before pulling out clothes; blue denim high wasted shorts, a black croptop, a red flannel, and a pair of Timberland's. I didn't do much with my hair, I decided to leave it down. I put on make up, black eyeliner, mascara and red lipstick. I put on my wristbands and my red belly button piercing. I looked at my reflection and noticed I looked a bit different than I usually do, it was more of a Shay style. But I felt good about it.

I went downstairs and ate some food. But, unluckily, Mandy was there. But so was dad, so that was good.

"Oh, how's the baby coming along?" Mandy smirked. My dad nearly spit out his coffee.

"Baby?! You're pregnant?!" My dad said. Shock on his face.

"No, actually I'm not!" I hissed. "All the tests came out negative, for your information."