Mimi Turns Pretty - SOON TO BE PUBLISHED ✅

Chapter 49

I walk over to Ollie, each step making my heartbeat a little bit quicker.

Kada yapak ko I can hear the crunch of the gravel beneath my shoes, but I can't look down. I want to look at him while I walk, while I talk and while I take whatever emotions he throws at me. I'm not backing down now. I need to get through this and let him know how much I mean what I'm about to say.

I need him to understand.

I stop near the foot of the stairs, parang may dalawang dipa na distance sa amin. I can see his face clearly now, and I've missed that face so much, but I know I don't have the right to show him because of what I did to him the last time we talked.

Dahil I'm feeling super nervous and awkward I try to start light in the conversation.

I point to the house, "Ang ganda ng bahay na 'to ha. Grabe. Ikaw nag-design?"

He doesn't say anything.

So, I try again, "I saw the table diyan sa dining area mo, it looks like the table from Lola's birthday last year, bumili ka?"

Again, nothing.

I clear my throat, "So, I'm back. I just got back actually, last week lang. I was busy with the business, kasi Kuya wanted to teach me stuff muna before anything else so I did that first."

I bite the inside of my cheek. Parang naging kasapi na ng pader si Ollie dahil hindi manlang siya nag-re-react.

Napalunok ako, "And Lola's birthday was yesterday, so we had a small dinner party sa bahay n'ya. I guess I shouldn't have expected you to be there."

I'm rambling because I don't know how to begin telling him how I feel. Do I just blurt it out? Para matapos na? Sigawan ko lang ng isang "I LOVE YOU" pwede na ba 'yon?

Wala pa rin akong maisip na magandang intro sa sasabihin ko, so I say, "May mga nakita akong kambing kanina! Ang dami tsaka pagala-gala lang sila dito! Tsaka may mga..."

"Is that the reason why you came here? Para sa mga kambing?" he butts in and I almost laugh at the absurdity of the question, pero hindi siya ngumiti. He's annoyed.

I frown, "Hindi. I came here because I want to talk to you."

He nods, "Then talk."

I bite the inside of my cheek, "I was trying to, nag-wa-warm up lang ako kasi you're making me nervous."

He shrugs, "Not my problem."

He's so cold and I can't read him. I bite my lip dahil ayaw kong umiyak without saying anything, but I feel like he's just so angry with me na kahit anong sabihin ko ngayon nothing will change his mind. He's probably already moved on.

Oh my God! Paano kung may girlfriend na siya? Am I standing here in front of his house and there's a girl in this room right now?

I put my hand on my mouth, "Do you have a girlfriend? Is she there?" I point to the room upstairs.

Napailing lang siya, "If you've got nothing to say, then I need to go."

He turns around and I yell, "Wait! Ollie!"

He stomps up the stairs at wala akong choice kundi ang sundan siya, "Hey! Wait! I really need to tell you something!"

I run up the stairs after him and he walks inside the house, sumunod ako at itinukod ang kamay ko sa sliding door to stop it from closing, "I really need to talk to you, Ollie."

Pumihit siya paharap sa akin, sighs, then sits on the armrest of the huge L-shaped couch in what seems like his living room, "Then start talking."

Pumasok ako sa pinto and closed it behind me, but I don't take a step towards him. There's something about being this close to him, in a place that's far away that my brother or anyone else to disturb us that just stirs up emotions inside of me. I feel so vulnerable to him, like in a snap he can just break my heart. Well, that's poetic justice I guess since I broke his heart the last time.