H&J Lockdown

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"Thats the big secret you had to tell me?" I ask. To be honest, I already had assumed he hid my birth control when he hid my bag so what he confessed wasn't shocking to me. But that he was worried about confessing to it was. 

"Yes. No." He answers getting down on his knees in front of me, grabbing my hips and looking up at me. "When I was moving my stuff out of the apartment to the house I found your pills. I took them but not on purpose. They must have fell out of your bag and neither of us seen them when we tore the room apart."

I look down at him, hating how broken he looks over something I thought I already had figured out. "If you didn't hide them on purpose then why are you so upset?"

"I know you think I hid them. I'm not stupid. You seem happy now but I don't want you to blame me later if you change your mind. I don't want any secrets between us. "

"Yes, I thought you hid them." I start but then stop when he stands up offended.

"You think so little of me?"

"Let me finish! Of course I thought you hid them when you stole my bag. You did steal the bag they were in!" I point out before continuing, "But you didn't force me to have unprotected sex with you. We both knew we were not using any protection and we both knew what could happen. I mean I could have made you wear a condom."

"I just don't want you to ever think that I trapped you."

"Come here." I take his hand and pull him over to the bed, climbing onto his lap when he sits down. Instinctively he holds my stomach and my heart swells."We don't live normal lives and our relationship has never been normal. I know how scared you are when we are apart and I feel the same way. I want to trap you too-because your mine."

"One day you might not feel the same way."

"One day you might too."

"You know thats never going to happen. I'm in this forever."

"So am I."

He lays back on the bed, taking me with him and I adjust so my I am halfway laying on him, one leg draped over him.

"I can't believe you think I cheated on you." He laughs. "Besides the fact you know how against it I am, we are locked inside this hotel, who would I have cheated on you with?"

"Shut up! I didn't think that far into it, my emotions just took over!" I tease, smacking his chest.

We talk until Hero falls asleep, obviously drained from not sleeping the night before. I snuggle into him closer as I try to fall asleep, happy that there is no longer any secrets between us....