H&J Lockdown

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The name we played around with only lasted until we were bathing baby J the next day and decided she looked nothing like a Berkeley. Not wanting to settle on just any name we left it be and figured it would come to us eventually.

Three weeks went by and every time we would try to think of something we always came back to the name John- jokingly. Since we were calling her baby J I decided to make it more girly and call her Jonnie, just to try it out and it stuck. Hero loved it because he could still call her baby J and it was close to his grandfathers name, a name he loved. We made it official finally filling out all of her paperwork.

We hadn't let anyone meet her in person yet besides his family. My family and select friends we trusted met her on face time and so far she stayed our little secret.

We fell into a easy routine, both of us loving parenthood and each night she started sleeping longer and longer making it easier.

In three weeks we would be able to have sex again if I was cleared by the doctor but I was nervous. I was losing the baby weight pretty quickly and luckily had minor stretch marks but my body was definitely different. On top of all of that I was still nursing.

Its not that I didnt think Hero would be attracted to me anymore, I already knew he was since he got a boner when he had to help me get dressed the day after I gave birth, which he casually told me it was his natural reaction to me. Since then its happened a couple more times when we are close or being affectionate. The insecurities were more on my end and what he would actually think when we were in the moment.

To make myself feel better i started doing light workouts and we started taking nightly walks around the neighborhood. Hero kept telling me to not overdue it and trying to get me to stop doing some workouts and eating only salads, thinking i was only trying to get into shape for our upcoming movie promo, not knowing it was for a completely different reason....