H&J Lockdown

19

"My face looks fuller already doesn't it?" I ask Hero for the 1000th time as I re-watch my promotional video clip before sending it off to my team.

He just got home from doing his own promotional stuff and I have bombarded him with questions about my video as soon as he walked through the door.

"No, for the last time. You look beautiful and your face looks normal baby." He tells me, trying not to laugh at me.

I roll my eyes at him and send the clip, dreading that so many people will see it in a few days.

"You say that now." I bait him jokingly.

Not saying anything he comes over to his desk where I am working and grabs my face. "You know I think you are the most beautiful woman in the world and seeing your body change and grow with our baby isn't going to change that. You know that, right? It just makes you sexier to me."

"I hope." I say quietly, hating that I turned a joking moment into a serious one over my new insecurities. Not that I have gained any weight, the opposite in fact. Over the last few weeks I have been sick and unable hold down food most days so I have actually lost weight. But when you have to see thousands of girls lusting after your man online, it starts eating away at your confidence when you know whats to come.

Shutting my laptop he pulls me up and wraps his arms around me, kissing me. "No, you know this and know I love you more then anything." Leaning up on my tip toes I kiss him but he pulls away to continue, " I'm just waiting for the day your acting career takes off and you leave me in the dust, growing bored of me."

I shove him back laughing, "Oh pshh. You are so sweet."

When I look at his face, smiling at him, he doesn't smile back or have any humor written on it at all. The dead serious look on his face throws me off and I go to him, kissing him again, because surely he has to be joking.

"I watched your promo stuff today, you looked sexy." I tell him in between kisses, knowing hes going to give me a hard time because I stressed myself out about us doing promotional videos for the last couple weeks.

"Oh yeah? And you were worried how we would tape our stuff separately."

I pinch his arm pulling back from his face. "You know I am a over thinker."

"I didn't know that." He laughs, then turns serious placing his hand on my belly. "How have you felt today?"

"Good, actually. No nausea at all today."

"I though so, your not pale today." He replies looking relieved. The past couple weeks seeing me sick have stressed him out more then me, even though my blood tests have all came back positive. I could tell leaving me today was hard on him but next week we have our first official doctors appointment and hopefully hearing the babies heart beat will put him somewhat at ease.

With the doctors office being overly busy since things started opening back up we weren't able to get in for the normal eight week pregnancy appointment (or when we were assuming I was eight weeks) so I will be a little further along.

After dinner we shower then start a new Netflix series while lying in bed but I fall asleep halfway through the first episode. I wake up slightly when Hero tells me he is going out to the living room to play video games with his roommates and pass out right after he kisses my forehead.

Sometime later I wake up to Hero getting into his side of the bed. The room is pitch black but I turn to him and sleepily seek out his back and rub my hand up his neck to run through his hair. But instead of the normal short buzz on the back of Heros head, its thick longer hair. That wakes me up instantly and it hits me that the instead of Heros normal smell, a mixture of his cigarettes and cologne, the man next to me smells like alcohol and another mixture of cigarettes and cologne. He grunts confirming my already known suspicions and I scream instantly, unable to stop myself.

Seconds later, before anything can happen the door comes crashing in and the body next to me is thrown to the ground. I sit there in his bed, unable to move as the minutes pass in a blur watching as Heros dark room, filled with only light from the hall now, fills with his friends as they try to separate him from the guy that was in his bed with me.