Sinner

Chapter 21

*Korean*

I walk into the magically clean dorm. The lights are off and I smell a nice scent of home.

It smells like fried chicken and vanilla.

I turn on the lights to see every member of nct, my manager, and Sidney with Golden flowers in their hands. I notice that this is being filmed.

Oh... this is Vlive.

"Congratulations on your Grammy nomination," they say altogether.

I let out a sigh before showing a plastic smile. My manager gave the "you better cry out of happiness" look. I start to cry, Jisung and Winwin run over to me.

"What's wrong," Winwin says, rubbing my back.

"I wasn't expecting this," I cry out as Jisung hugs me.

"We made food!" Renjun says as Jeno helps Chenle and Jungwoo set up the table. I look at my money hungry manager, smiling at me.

"Thank you so much," I say as Johnny pats my head. I smile as he plays with my hair.

He is one of the few people that I allowed to touch my hair. It is near impossible to find someone that can do my hair since there are virtually no black hairstylists, and Korean hairstylists don't know how to do my hair. So I do my own hair and I hate it, I don't let people touch my hair for that reason.

Each member gives me a flower and I read fans' comments saying how happy and proud they are of me but I feel nothing, all the joy that I felt an hour disappeared. I feel cheated, I miss celebrating without making money. I love my fans but I just want to celebrate with my friends. I felt alone even with over ten people celebrating my accomplishment. Everyone feels fake, all the laughs and smiles were programmed.

I keep the plastic smile as I look at Sidney's knees all bruised up by the hours of floor work. I sigh as real tears build-up, I look around to see the Golden balloon that spells out Grammy 2018. The room is decorated in black and gold.

"Nctzens are asking why aren't you eating," Taeil asks.

"Oh, I ate before I came here," I lied.

"Jeno you didn't tell her not to eat," Yuta scolds.

I look at the manager that is glaring at me.

"I'm sorry," Jeno says.

"It's okay, next time tell her," Doyoung says as I look at Jaemin who is currently acting like Isabella from Phineas and Ferb towards Sidney.

Cute... I wonder when they'll finally date, it's been 6 months.

"Joycle is no fun," Haechan says. I look over him with boredom all over my face. I raise my eyebrows sending a shiver down his back.

"I guess," I say bored as I bite a strawberry. I notice Jeno staring at my lips.

Oh, this might be fun.

I look Jeno in the eyes as I seductively lick my lips. His eyes widen and his face turns bright red. I chuckle as I lean back in my chair as I play with my natural curls. I smirk at Jeno before winking at him. I watch him drool.

"Um, Joylce_is_amazing, said that Joycle looks super hot right now," Jaehyun reads out making me laugh. My tongue grazes the bottom of the top row of my teeth. I look down and cover my face with my hands.

"Another one said that Joycle is turning her gay and she got a boyfriend," Mark reads as the group laugh.

"You'll thirsty," I say as my manager glares at me. I gulp and straighten up. "But I still love y'all," I say faking a smile. I look at the clock to see that I have been here for two hours. "Um, I have to head home, it's getting dark and I skate halfway here," I say.

"Oh okay, bye," Taeyong says as the other boys' wave bye.

"I'll catch up later since I took my car here," Sidney says, making me nod.

"Bye," I say as I get up.

I quickly left the apartment, my manager followed me.

"What's your problem," he shouts at me.

"Excuse me," I say calmly.

"You were flirting with Jeno," he says as I watch steam coming out of his ears.

"Um, I guess I was," I say as I feel myself tremble.

"Are you trying to ruin his career," he goes on.

"No," I say.

"Then don't ever fucking flirt with him again, you dirty hoe," he scolds. I hold my skateboard tightly before I walk away from him. "I'm not done talking to you," he shouts as he follows me.

I started to run, I ran out of the building with my manager on my ass and started to skate.

I get out my phone and text someone.

Me: yo

Chinese Jb: sup

Me: can we meet up

Chinese Jb: sure, usual spot

Me: yeah

Chinese Jb: see u at in 10 min

Me: make it 5min

Chinese Jb: oh u at Renjun place

Me: Nah, Winwin's

Chinese Jb : Dope

I put my phone in my pocket as I reach my car. I opened the door and drove off to my usual spot.