To be honest, why the fuck does this surprise you? The first thing you did after you woke up was scream into your pillow as loud as you could and then as always you fucking internalized everything because you're nothing but a fucking little bitch who would rather play the dammed heroe than deal with all your fucking problems like a normal fucking being, now you're surprised you're numb? You brought this on yourself.
Stop. Playing the victim. You're your own fuckin nightmare, stop making everyone believe you're good for anything at all. Stop stealing everyone's time and attention, they all have better crap to do.
