A Bit of Tomorrow

Thirty-Third

Cassy

"You dropped this last night," I reached out the handkerchief to him, checking his reaction. He looked like he was caught off guard but he was quick to conceal it.

He got out and grabbed the handkerchief from me, "Oh, thank you." He smiled. I was expecting him to tell me something, to explain but he didn't do it. I turn my back against him and paced out from his sight.

Again, I had this little hope inside of me that he would call me and tell me that everything was perfectly fine but I thought wrong. He didn't. I just continued to walk step by step as every moment felt lighter for me.

I can't get him to tell me. I can't have my questions answered. It's just stupid of me to think that we had something really special going on but turns out, I can't even go on and ask him anything that made me doubt our relationship.

Worse, I know that there is something going on but I can't seem to get a hold of what's in his mind. Am I still not someone he can depend on? What is Ellis hiding from me? Is it something that I am supposed to be worried about? Because by the way that my heart is beating right now, it seems to me that there is more than just this surface.

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I walk down along the garden, barefoot as I stride my fingertips along the leaves that surrounded the place. I felt the gentle wind blew past me as my white dress coincided with the flow. A faint smile drawing on my tinted lips.

I walk the endless path to nowhere, I walk the peaceful path with no one. I step on the gentle grass as every memory begins to resurface before my eyes. I take one more step and that's when I see my first love before my eyes standing, smiling at me.

I walk nearer towards you, my heart playing the familiar beat that it would usually. My heart that never rests whenever I saw you. The sight of you that leaves traces of emotions on me, keeps on replaying before me.

I walk, delighted to see you standing in front of me, the white polo you've always loved wearing. But, heavens know how much I could've wished for you to stand beside me, right now. I smile through these sparkling eyes as I reach my hand out to you.

I walk one more step to you but the warmth I once felt became clammy. I grab your hand and all of a sudden, I felt the air grow colder. I open my eyes once again to only lose sight of you. I open my eyes to realize the reality that we were both in.

God knows how much I want to turn back time. The day I walked down that carpet towards you, the day I swore that I would love you forever. The day that made me realize how eminent the love I had for you was, how I was willing to live my life differently, is the same day you decided that it wasn't the case for you.

How could a first love be so cruel? You told me comforting words, that you would never leave me but where are you now? Where was the man who told me that he would give me the stars? Where was the man that once stood beside me, staring at me in wonder? Where are the eyes that gazed at me so beautifully?

I gave out a huge sigh and stretched all around. I look up from my laptop and save the file that I was working on. I squeeze my eyes shut and stayed laying there for a while. I've been having troubles with ending the story that I was writing, I can't seem to find a better ending.

My phone buzzed from the desk and I reach out to see who messaged me. I opened and saw that it was an email from Blue Ribbon Publishing—a reminder. In this case, I am supposed to meet with them tomorrow for the contract signing.

Then a message from Ellis popped up on the screen. I swiftly swipe across the applications to check his message.

Ellis : I'll be there in a bit, see you. :)