Unknown Sensations

Chapter twenty nine

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Harley

There is an aftermath to every situation , no matter how small . Somethings you can't just run from , somethings like feelings and emotions , see you can't run away from the inevitable . But for how long - how long do you have to endure heartbreaks , constant disappointment ? Heck it was a recurring cycle .

How many more times do I have to reduce my standards just to accommodate him and his way ? I've had to avail myself whenever it suited him . I've made so many concessions in this relationship than he ever had . I thought we were on the same page but it turns out there wasn't even a page for us to be on , stupid Harley thought she could have Jo'burg's most wanted to herself . That Altagracia woman actually belonged in his world , she had the perfect hair , gorgeous eyes , sexist body and the most beautiful smile , she looked like money . She completed him , what did I have that she didn't already have ? She was the total opposite of me .

Let's see , I had wild hair that needed hours to perfect , I was 5'8 feet tall , I was curvy , I didn't grow up in money - I was taught to wait till month end to get what I asked for , I needed to be excellent in everything I did - grades , competitions , hairstyles , dress code . I had to work three times harder than everyone else just to make sure I make it , it's worse now working in a male dominated industry . I have to prove myself each time , I enter the operating room .

I competed for everything in life and now it looked like , I had to compete for space in Spencer's life . I watched his gloomy expression , keeping mine stoic , revealing no evidence of my dejected heart . He trailed his hand over his face before sighing . I scoffed ramming over his changed appearance . He was now wearing a black jacket that came to his knees and black jeans , he wore black boots . He screwed his face up , scowling as he took in my appearance . I was wearing Mark's blue briefs and his white oversized t-shirt and mini socks , I fought the smile that threatened to tug on my face . I folded my arms together and leered at him .

He cleared his throat and palmed his face before shaking his head , he let out a sigh before sucking his teeth . " Can we talk ?" his hoarse voice spoke , sending chills down my spine . I let out the nervous breath I was holding in , I knew my voice would betray me if I attempted to speak so I settled for a glower and hollow expression . He sucked his teeth again and trailed his eyes on my body . We welcomed the uneasy silence falling upon us , as the dozen of unasked questions hung in the atmosphere . I shifted from my position at the uncomfortableness I was beginning to feel , I cleared my throat but remained quiet . " Please , Angel ." the voice I heard wasn't the one, I was used to , it was now replaced by a tight voice and a despondent face .

I found myself softening up , I stepped outside and closed the door behind me . My stoic expression still in place . "Thank you ," he said in a taut voice , he shook his head before sighing . " I was going to tell you ," he began . What was he going to tell me ? Was he going to telling me that he'd have company on his birthday , or the fact that today was his birthday? All these questions screamed at me but never found their way out of my mouth . I went bereft on him , I didn't believe anything he said . " Altagracia came unannounced , I was taking a shower when she announced her arrival at the house . I was coming to you , Angel ."

I remained quiet , this wasn't an apology or good enough reasons , he took off his jacket and extended it to me , " Put it on ," he gravelly said . I eyed the jacket then glared at him for explaination , " I don't want his scent masking the one I know of you ," he said in monotonous , unaware of my actions , I found myself laughing but it soon died when I realized what I was doing and the small smile that appeared on his face . Even after everything he did tonight , he was still jealous and territorial . I extended my hand and retrieved the jacket from him and wore it over my temporary night clothes . " Much better ," I heard him murmur under his breath .

" I should have told you it's my birthday today, I would have told you but not today , " the confusion on my face was evident , I didn't need to voice out my question because it was clear as time . " I don't celebrate it , at all " again his tone was dead and his jaw was clenched , I figured it was a sensitive topic and I wasn't going to push it . " You guys didn't-" I let the question finish itself , he let out his fruity laugh that sounded deep and strong activating the pulsating edge to jump on him . " No , we didn't but she left immediately after you left ." Relief washed over me like cold water on a sunny day , he didn't cheat on me . " What about the romantic dinner she prepared for you in the kitchen?" I whispered in my wobbly voice . He took cautious steps towards me , he closed the distance between us and palmed my face , " I prefer a movie dinner with my Angel instead , what's more romantic than that , Angel ?" his words warmed my heart in much more appealing ways , he brought his face close to mine until we were exchanging breaths . " Thompson , " I sucked in sharp breath , he answered by crashing his lips on mine .

I intoxicated myself with his rich spiced breath from the rich whiskey spices , I slowly melted myself into the kiss and wrapped my arms around his neck , all the buried feelings surfaced from my gut , they burned me like acid and it pulled away at my pounding heart , a simple slow paced kissed igniting so much fire and feelings from me . My knees failing to hold me balance , he moved his hands from my face and tightened his grip on my waist , steading me . All of these feelings towards him were overwhelming me at this moment , " I love you ," the words that threatened to come out whenever we were together easily let themselves out . He frozed into the kiss and released my waist from his grip , he broke the kiss and looked up to me with wide eyes , my eyes widened too at the realization of what I had just confessed . " I love you , Thompson ." Again these foreign words escaped my mouth , he opened his mouth to speak but I wasn't ready to hear anything he said . " Angel-" I cut him off by pulling him to me and crashing my lips back to his .

" Let's get out of here ," he said in between the kiss , I smiled breaking the kiss and pulling myself back . " It's still my birthday and I'd like to end it the right way ," he added . " Okay let me go get my things ," I said walking back inside . " I'll be here ," he said . I walked back inside and found Mark waiting for me in the hallway .

Shit .

" Mark ," I called him , not knowing what to say to him . His forlorn face broke my heart . " You're leaving with him , aren't you ?" For the first time ever , I heard Mark speak in a dead voice . " It was a misunderstanding , Mark I'm sorry." I rambled , his bitter laugh made me stop my rambling . " You'd be stupid if you believed that ,"he stated . " Mark-"I began but he shook his head . "Will it also be a misunderstanding when he makes you cry again , Harley?"He asked , I tried to think of an answer but I couldn't find one . " I can give you what he can't , Harley . Give me a chance,"he said stepping closer to me , my mind was telling me to move back or step aside but my body wouldn't correspond .

He held my waist and brought his lips to mine , he tasted like salmon and vanilla , my mind was screaming for me to stop but I couldn't pull back from the kiss , I was returning it . Spencer was ten feet away , just behind that closed door and I was locking lips with another man . My eyes snapped open at the thought of Spencer catching me , I jumped back and clamped my mouth . Mark's eyes softened , he opened his mouth but I didn't want to hear it , guilt consumed me . " I have to go , I'm sorry Mark ,"I pushed past him and scurried into his lounge , I grabbed my keys , cellphone and bag and scurried back to the hall where he wasn't anymore . I strutted outside and closed his door behind me .

"You ready to go , Mrs Thompson?" Spencer asked me , he called me by his last name in attempt to lighten up the mood but my mind was racing . " Yes ," I began walking . " I took a cab here so we'll use your car , I'll drive."he spoke but the words sounded like they were coming from the ocean . He pulled me back , " Are you sure you're okay ?" He asked , concern all over his face . No I just cheated on you with Mark and I think I might have feelings for him , I don't know , my feelings for you are too strong either plus I'm in love with you .

" Yes , let's go home ."