Unknown Sensations

Chapter seventy one

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Harley

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It is almost the same as checking the weather forecast and see that there'd be a terrible storm and the weatherman advices the residents to remain in the safety of their homes for the duration of the storm but you don't listen , having the mindset that it is just an ordinary storm , strong winds , and heavy rainfall but that's it . So you begin packing , you pack the swimsuit and surfing costume alongside everything you think you'll need to survive the weather outside . Driving to the ocean , you begin setting for the activity -surfing . Having the thought that the waves and current will be gentle , you hop on the surfboard and you let the gentle waters carry your weight .

You ride the still waters for a while , unaware that the waters were gathering themselves , gaining strength for what would cause mass distraction . You continue to surf with your guard down , carefree as you ride the waves you let the water lead you totally unaware of the mass destruction that's about to happen . You are ignorant until you can't ignore it anymore until it is in your face staring right at you the title wave consumes you and hugs you like a newborn baby like a mother hugs her child . The waters swallow you , dragging you into the unknown , you fight for survival only there's no survival , you are fighting against the bigger odds of the world .

That's what happened to me I let my guard down I saw the sign just like the weather man I even know what his advice is ignored the advice is of the people I went with my god I went with my heart I didn't leave my place stay-at-home the weatherman said but I packed my suite my suit and my gear and headed to the ocean he was the storm that I built my house and funny to think I expected flowers to grow inside of storm house he pulled me in his real name and he drowned only now I am fighting for survival having believe that I still have the chance I will use all my strength and all my might to get through it.

There are no words to describe my panic state I can't seem to fathom words that can describe the amount of fear that I feel but anyone that is around me can feel the fear at radiating of my body fear of the man that stands behind the closed door the beast known as my husband I fear for my life I fear for my children's life.

I wouldn't say I attract danger or that I am a danger magnet but then again I always choose to go fetch danger where it lies.

Out of all the man that I could have ended up with I ended up with Spencer , I ended up with him out of everyone , shit .

Lony was perfect , he was the perfect choice the perfect suitor he was kind selfless sweet caring and handsome and he had the means to take care of me he had the means and my parents love him they love him I love him just not in the way that he loves me and I don't know why for the life of me I can't look past the fact that I can't give him more than sistership.

Instead , I went for the first man that showed interest and absolute desire in me . The man never hid desire for me , he always craved for me , he made me feel wanted . The thrill and excitement that comes with being desired sent my confidence level sky rocket . It did wonders to my self-esteem , to be preyed and hunted by a man of his status made me feel somewhat important .